Sunday Holidays

After sleep darn late last night, I thought for a moment I couldn't wake up for church. I was wrong. I was dead wrong. In fact, I woke up feeling super energetic~!! First Sunday of the holidays are ALWAYS great! Ate two Char Siu Pao for breakfast, which by the way, taste great! Sang as I bathed (breaking glass panels at the same time too). Got dressed and ready for action.

Church was a bit special today. Pastor Moses was down from Penang, smiling as usual. Talked about Ruth's early life and how she got to where she was. Mostly about God's purpose and stuff. Interesting, as expected from Ps Moses. He did, after all, started Gateway Christian Fellowship. My my, how we've grown. The effects from Ps Joshua's retirement are slowly fading. Or at least I think it is. The church has been through a lot of trouble but that's all a different story.

After church, we had our camp briefing. Hopefully, this year's yc will be better. Hahaha~ Anyway, ate Char Siu Fan for lunch. De-li-cious! And haven't stop relaxing since. This is what I call holiday~

3 Doors/Books/Exams Down etc etc

Finally.. The Rock has come back!! the exams are over. Whopeedoo!! Isn't it great?! That's ofcourse, till you get the results.. Did I juz say that? Gotta need a more postive attitude. Still, the exams are over and I'm dead tired. Haven't had a decent sleep for the past 5 days but alas, those days are over. Now I'm staring at the computer screen, typing this blog. At the same time I'm checking my Friendsters and Yahoo email account. Aside from that, I'm sipping some good ol' cold coffee and reading Neverwinter Nights reference guide.

So what am I gonna do after this? I mean, it is a HOLIDAY after all. Let me tell you my action plan. There are 2 paths. The wise path and the foolish path.

~The Wise Path~
Turn off the computer and go to sleep. Rest long enough to wake up for tonight's Camp Committee Meeting. If possible, wake up earlier and think of the games to be played during Youth Camp. Go for meeting, come back and rest.

~The Foolish Path~
Stick on the com and try out the new stuff that I've juz learnt. THEN turn off the com. Switch on my sub-woofer and CD player and start jamming with jars of clay. Play some miss calls and sms SP. Watch some movies (most probably Austin Powers or Jackass) while eating Mr Potato: Original. Tire myself out enough to look like I've been studying sooooo hard this week as an excuse of going to the meeting 20 minutes late. Go lepak after the meeting and watch more tv shows with parents. Go online again till 2 to 4.00am. THEN only sleep~

Guess which one I'm gonna pick.

This Road

All heavy laden acquainted with sorrow
May Christ in our marrow, carry us home
From alabaster come blessings of laughter
A fragrance of passion and joy from the truth

Grant the unbroken tears ever flowing
From hearts of contrition only for You
May sin never hold true that love never broke through
For God's mercy holds us and we are His own

This road that we travel, may it be the straight and narrow
God give us peace and grace from You, all the day
Shelter with fire, our voices we raise still higher
God give us peace and grace from You, all the day through

~jars of clay~

2nd Down

*studying makes you melt... slowly*

After studying so much for System Analysis & Design, codenamed: SAD it was time to test my limited knowledge of that subject. I sat for my SAD exam. The fact that I can transfer my credits on this subject made it the most important subject this semester. Walking through the exam hall was rather ominous. Each step echoed through the walls of the exam hall, calling out memories of previous bloodbath exams. The voices of comrades whispering to each other, exchanging exam tips and their last words of encouragement. Caught in the atmosphere, I accidentally step on a student's foot. He looked at me with a zombie like expression. From his looks, I knew he was a veteran. I could see the scars of previous battles he fought in. Scary. I saw my seat in a distant, No. 231. I mustered my courage and picked up the pace. The seat was cold - full of scratches and holes. The sign of age.

*indian ah pek studying with style*

The students sitting in the massive hall were restless and anxious to get started. "You may begin!" the invigilator's voice thundered across the hall. The sound of scribbling pens and pencils were the only thing left that could be heard. I closed my eyes and began to pray. The angels of wisdom and knowledge surrounded me, singing their songs to me. My heart was calmly beating at a moderate pace. "Amen~" I picked up my pen and shaped my destiny. Before I knew it, I was done. Did final checks and flipped through the answers, making sure I missed nothing. Submit my papers and walked out the front door.

Paranoia came upon me. I resisted the temptation to check my answers.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!

aiming high

*oh it's nothing.. i'm juz aiming for the moon*

My day started off unusually early at 8.30am. Like a blind man, I navigated with my hands to the bathroom, stumbled over some furniture along the way too and by 9.40am, I was at SP's house to pick her up. All that trouble for what you ask? Well, you wouldn't believe me if I told you - to study at the State Library. Yeap~ I could enter Ripley's Believe It Or Not: Konn Mann Edition for that sort of thing. Not that I've NEVER been there or anything like that; it's juz that I SELDOM go there to study (or to do whatever nonsense). I met my cuz, Su Pheen, studying with her friends there too. She asked me out for lunch and I agreed. And so, we started studying intensively (though intensive is already too late i guess).

After a few hours of staring at alien notes and empty papers, I decided it was time for a break. And so I went to find Su Pheen and the 4 of us, Su Pheen, her friend, SP and me, went to Sin Hoe garden to chomp down some lunch. Su Pheen and her friend had Wan Tan Mee while SP and me had Un Lai's Beef Noodles (again!!). Juz as we were about to start eating, 3 guys came and sat in our table. Juz as I was about to stand up, SP pulled my shirt and told me that they were her friends - Catholic High School crappers. Gutless losers with no sense of pride. How dare they sit in the same table as me! I ensured their deaths to be... swift and as painless as possible. Dealing with their leftovers was kinda messy. We then continued to munch down our food.

After good meal, we headed back to the library to continue to study. Well, actually it was juz only SP and me left. Su Pheen and her friend went home. And I thought she was having her STPM. Hmmmm... Studying half-way, SP complaint to me about a stomach ache she was having. Strangely enough, my stomach feels juz as weird too. I feared the worst. "*gasp!* Maybe Un Lai poisoned us!", SP returned a sharp stare at me. Understood ma'am.

I somehow managed to cover all 7 chapters required for the finals in those hours that I study. Even as I'm typing this down, I'm actually taking a break from studying at my bro's apartment. I've been practically studying the whole day~! And why do I study so hard for this subject, System Analysis and Design? To transfer my credits when I'm doing my degree ofcourse! I'm aiming for atleast a B+ because that's the requirements to transfer my credits. Talk about aiming high huh?

1st Paper Down

I guess it pays for not studying much for Computer Systems and Architecture. The name of the subject itself could scare off any noob. Especially me. Questions weren't really difficult; it's juz that I've forgotten how to answer them. Hah~! And I thought staying up all night to study would help. Well, it was really stressful, burning the midnight petroleum and stuff. It's something I rarely do. Luckily, I'm more of a night person, so staying up till sunrise didn't bothered me much. All I did was study and study and study... Oh yea~ The one-game-only Gunbound breaks helped a lot too~ *ahaks~!* The evening was rather fun I guess, played a few pranks before we started to get serious with studying. Did our usual wet tissue and "looking for crocodile hunter" prank. Crazy and fun as usual~

*if i'm asleep, how did i take the pic?*

After a couple of hours, and we're worn out; slumped over our chairs and beds, we looked at each other like a zombie. The cure - instant noodles! Ahhhh! Food of the gods~! Contrary to what SoupySnax says, having a break doesn't give you a boost in alertness. Instead, it juz gives you more time to play around. After the much needed laughter, we sank our heads back into the precious notes. Studied for a few more hours before I took my 2nd break. As I turn around and see how's everyone doing, Aaron Wee was dead on the bed. My bro was dead on the couch outside the living room. Gee~ Thanx for the encouragement dude! Kept my spirits high (and dry). Before I knew it, it was already nearly 6am and I had to persuade myself to sleep.

*"Oii~! Wrong angle larr~!" - Aaron Wee's exam*

Woke up around 12pm. 1st thing I did, watch Aaron Wee play Gunbound. Then I joined him with my bro's computer in his room. Seriously, Gunbound is such a good stress reliever. It did wonders to me. Took a bath, changed, and head off to The Evil Room of CITS LAB 1 where my fate awaits me - 1st paper down. *sigh*

THE -big- DAY

So what's up abou exam's huh? I'm now in my friend's apartment to do some last minute "study" - if it's any study in the 1st place. *ahak!* Well, it's not my fault the damn apartment has quite a good LAN connection for me to play Gunbound! *sigh* Okay, I overrate BBU's LAN connection speed. In truth, it sux - big time. But hey, I ain't complaining. At least it's better than mine. There's nothing I enjoy more than anything (besides being beside SP), is hanging out with friends. Yea.. Crazy bunch of butt-heads~! Sometimes I feel that they're a bad influence to me.. and vice versa. Right... Damn hard to study with these guys around.

*sigh*

Truth be told, I'm afraid because I'm NOT afraid. Really freaks me out. I mean, I'm not confident or anything, nor have I studied much as I wrote previously. I'm like, so dead now. All I ask for is just a pass. That's all I need. Hopefully, get a B+ for my System Analyst and Design so that I can transfer the credits when I do my degree. What a long shot. So much for the big day huh? God help me..

i got fired!!

Well, not really fired. I've stopped working. Heck~ I'm one of my dad's elite crews that he can actually depend on! He wouldn't fire me right? Or would he.... *insecurity sux* What more a better way to celebrate the day that I stopped working to concentrate on my studies than to go out on a movie date with SP. *Ah hak~*

I had 2 movies installed for us - Shutters, which is said to be a really good horror show though it's Thai; and The Incredibles, which is as expected - really incredible. It's fun watching for free but hey, I get used to it. *Hehe~* The Shutters was a great show. Honestly, I feel that it's better than Ju-On. Though it's filled with loadz of cheap sound-n-scare and the ghost looks kinda pretty (i think she uses Head and Shoulders.. hmmm...), the movie has a pretty solid story and the main character, is a jerk. The combo of a great story indeed. I especially like it when it ends with the ghost still haunting the poor dude. My perquisite for every horror movie. Hehe~

The Incredibles was seriously a great show, though I had to shut some ball-less malay punks next to me - which adds to the fun. Bwahahahahaa! I find such shows rather refreshing from all the violence, gore, sex etc etc. Believe it or not, there's not a single drop of blood in the show! Pixar Animators did a great job animating The Incredibles. Lots of unnoticeable elements - which by the way, is a good thing okay? Hmmm.. One day, maybe I could work for them... *ONE DAY*.

*juz the two of us.. we can make it if we try..*

The best thing about watching shows, is you watch it with someone like SP. She always shut me up when I make some logical comments on the show, or pick up plot holes. What can I say? It's difficult being a critic rite? But still, I had fun with her. Though we couldn't spend much time together today, I guess I'll juz have to wait till both our exams to be over. Speaking of which, mine is juz a few days away. Make that 3 days. *gasp!!* And dad says I dunno how to manage my time. Well dad~! If I didn't work at all, I bet I could've managed my time efficiently. How in the world am I gonna study after a hard day of work?! I mean, come on mann~! *singing* I'm no Superman.. Thank God SP lightened up my spirits abit. Juz the sight of her smiling is good enough for me. *dont tell her i said that okay?*

What more a better way to end the day than to eat some Beef Noodles~ Once again, it's juz dad and me. Drove all the way to Bukit Baru's Sin Hoe Garden juz to taste the luxury of Un Lai's Beef Noodles. "We are you number one fan! Ahhhhh!!!" Really good stuff I tell ya~ Imagine all that fat and fiber, sipping into your body as it goes through your intestines. Lovely ain't it?

*BEEF NOODLES! BEEF NOODLES! BEEF NOODLES!

west(sad) story continues

*WARNING: naked guy in a bad mood after work*

After talking to many people and getting as much feedback as I can from them, I have come to the conclusion - my new hairstyle SUX!! I've asked professionals and commoners alike and most of them gave the same answer. Pretty pathetic eh? Aaron Wee looked shocked as well as my other friends. They told me the same thing; it doesn't suite my character. I mean, I'm more of the hyper crazy slacker type of guy. Not the cool fashion type. It's like Tom Cruise wearing an Ah Pek singlet and shorts, sitting in a coffee shop with one leg on the chair, sipping on his kopi-O-kau. Here I am, having an Ah Beng hairstyle when I'm one of those english-speaking guy whose general knowledge surpasses ordinary 18 year old that's my age. Heck~ I even do more crazier things than my friends because they chicken out (all legal - except the fireworks). According to Khim Hai, "You should have one of those crazy guy afro hairstyle. That suites you dude! Macam orang gila!". Geee~ I feel so much better Khim Hai. *sigh* Right now, I'm juz trying to 'fix' my hair by lessening the spike at the back and combing my front hair more to the right instead of it dropping down over my forehead. Collateral damage indeed.








off topic, but here's Vera's mom and kid bro in KRR.

*all for you Vera*

i feel pretty.. oh so pretty..

You know.. I’m one of those guys who wouldn’t really bother much about how I look, what I wear, or even how I smell for that matter. I’m actually comfortable with who I am - my personality. But it seems that my 'slumberness' affects a lot of people, especially SP. So after much persuasion from SP, I finally had a hair cut. Well, it’s more like a makeover if you ask me. I feel like one of those gay guys from Queer Eyes For The Straight Guy had a go with my hair. A weird but true way to put it. I don't really mind people messing with my hair. I mean after all, I did get a baldhead during my NS stint. While I was there, somehow or rather, everyone wouldn't get their haircut till they see me getting mine. The moment I heard that, I immediately got it done. The feeling of the breeze chilling your bare skinhead. Ahhh... Refreshing indeed~

*sing along now - anus anus anus*

Anyway, so SP and Rebekah brought me to some hairstylist in MP. Okay, catch this guy's name: Amus. "Wha-? I thought you said a-... Never mind." Strangely though, this guy has a weird voice, and I mean really weird voice. More like a squeaky girly-mouse voice. I wonder if he had his nutz eaten or something cause his voice really freaks me out sometimes. SP assured me that he's a professional and that he will do a good job with my hair. And so, I placed my life in a Anus Amus' hands. First few minutes felt good. My hair looked okay with out any gel on, with the front hair dropping down. I looked like some cute Japanese guy.

*moshi moshi - hello*

But... After he put some kinda weird wax (on my hair you donkey!) and I suddenly look like some Ah Beng whom had his hair bitten by a dog. Yes, my hair was bitten by a dog with no nutz *sigh*. I put on my usual optimistic and cheerful look. Made jokes about it and laugh at it with SP and Rebekah. But the moment I stepped into KRR, I had a cupcake thrown at my direction. The crew were all commenting on how I look. My bro said I look gay (which by the way, isn't really bad), my "mother" said I look weird (still not bad) and Melvin said that I look like some gangster from the streets or something (and i thought i stopped that long time ago.. hah~!). So there you had it. RM25 worth of haircut and this is what you get - mockery. Well, I can't say I blame them or anything. I admit, I look abit weird in this hairstyle. Hopefully, I'll get used to it one day. Hope is a BIG word.

*okay honestly, who threw the cupcake?*

the broken (toe) nail

*gasp~!* I haven't been blogging for 5 days! See, this is what work does to you. It eats your time like how you kids consume candy till your teeth rot and decay. Yeap~ It makes you olddddddd.... You body becomes frail and your bones, brittle. One fall and you're done for.

Okay.. So I'm exaggerating.

But for the past 4 days, I've been really pushing my bodies over the limit. It started on Wednesday. I came back form work at 7pm and went out with my friends at 9pm to blow up some bombs. The last thing we blew up was a herd of cows along the freeway. Came back at 4.30am. Woke up at 8am, picked Syikin, Rebekah and SP. Brought them to one of dad's workers house to celebrate Deepavali. Punched-in at 2pm sharp and work my butt through the buka puasa frenzy. It's really crazy how people can eat chicken. Don't they ever get bored?! Sick dudes.. *ahem* Anyway, so I left work at 9pm that night and went out to find my Indian friends to play more fireworks with them and came back at 3am. This time, we did lots of hit and runs. Wait for some poor night racer and bombs away!! BOOOOM!!!

Hahahahahahaha~ Such sense of accomplishment is a real bliss!

Speaking of accomplishments.. Though I was really tired today after coming back from work, I had a good time alone with myself. After bathing, I took out my bandage that's wrapping up my semi-broken little toe nail and I found out that it's already dead~! Which actually means I can pull the whole nail out! For good! Pretty cool stuff huh? Took deep breaths... Breathe in... Breathe out... Breath in - *hold* One... Two... Three... *pulls* Blood gushes out like the broken dam in X-Men 2. Gotta stop the bleeding!....... Oh no... It's too late! We're all gonna dieeeeee!!! (actually there's no bleeding)

*that sublime feeling...*

*see the thing on the right? guess what's that*

in need of a friendly smile

After so many hectic days, I was wondering to myself when will it end. Juz as I woke up to a blurry Sunday morning, a smile waited for me in my hand phone but somehow, I didn't see it. I thought it was a bad day; I missed church (God forgive me), injured my toe nail (again), and had my own mini-storm hovering over my head. Though the home church session with my mom helped me a lil', but the clouds were still there. I was juz waiting for things to get worse - it's a certain way to amuse myself. The first thing I had in mine was to sms SP and tell her how I felt but then, I felt that she wouldn't take it seriously. Dropped the idea.

It was 12pm. All of the sudden, the phone rang and I dutifully dragged my feet to pick it up. It was dad. "Drew~ Are you coming to MP or not? Shu Lin is here you know?" "Wha-? She's here?", I gazed at my hand phone. One new message.. Could it be.. Checked my message: Hey, I'm on the way to Malacca now. Are you free today? Wanna meet? I'll message you again when I arrive. How in the world did I missed that?! It doesn't matter already I guess.. She's in Malacca and somehow, my spirit was lifted. An old friend has came to pay me a visit. My best friend in NS - Shu Lin. Changed to some proper clothes, and went to MP.

Anticipation, anticipation. What else could I feel? After all, I haven't seen her in a while. As I waited for her in Kenny Rogers Roasters, I wondered how she would look like - long hair? larger composition? Nah~ I wouldn't wanna bother myself with such thoughts. Suddenly, a guy and a girl walked into KRR. It was Ee Jin and Shu Lin! They didn't noticed me as I sat with my back facing the entrance. They slowly walked towards the front counter and talked to my bro. Their backs facing me, brother told them to turn around. Slowly, they did. "Eh?! You're here!!" Shu Lin exclaimed. We exchanged greetings and warm smiles. Once again, it was juz the 3 of us; Ee Jin, Shu Lin, and me. For a man in need of a friendly smile, she was definitely the one to give it to me.


Okay, I admit, Mahkota Parade has become one heckofva boring place to lepak. Seriously, nothing here is attractive anymore. Too many Ah Bengs and Ah Lians, Mat Rempik and Mat Minahs. But it didn't bother us, throughout most of the time, Shu Lin and I were talking. I kinda felt bad leaving Ee Jin out of the conversation but I guess there are some things that she wanted to share with me alone. Alas, she couldn't stay long, as she and her friends had to return to Tangkak before 7pm and it was already 5pm. Ee Jin sent them to Melaka Sentral. Exchange good byes and farewells and of course, warm smiles.

6.00 p.m. Sms ringtone came to life

I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You

.:Shu Lin:.
I've reached my college. Actually, I have a lot of things to tell you. I intended to tell you that I have a bf today but I juz dunno how. I think the situation is juz like the time you with SP.

Indeed it is Shu Lin.. Indeed it is..

let me fade away...

I'm so tired and worn out with this life. Many a times I juz feel like screaming out in hopes that someone could hear me. But as much as I try, my voice can't be heard. Much like a distant echo, it rings in the walls of my room and I'm trapped in this prison I've built. As much as I try to hide away from the world, it's dark, formless hands pull me deeper into it. They hold me down, flogged me and beat me up before throwing me to the sidewalks of the harsh world where I'm spit at and pushed aside.

Though as tough and resilient as I am, how much can a man take before he realize his body is broken? I dunno.. I guess the fact that my body IS already partially broken has already made its point eh~ Most people wouldn't know what I face or what I've faced before. Heh~ Even my dear ol' parents don't know but I guess that doesn't matter too. To the world, I'm juz a guy who smiles and grin very often. But behind that smile, I'm slowly fading away...

IT BURNS!! IT BURNS!!!

ARGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!

It hurts mannn! I juz kicked my bloody broken toe nail again!! Juz as I was happily chatting with Vera on msn, I accidentally kicked my lil' toe nail off - again! How dumb can I be?! @#$%#!!

But you know, the pain was kinda.. fun.. For a long moment there, I enjoyed the pain I felt. Weird huh? There was a moment of euphoria as I felt the pain surge through my body, activating every nerve in my body as I watch the blood flowing from the injury. Then, reality came back. Gross..... Hope you're not eating as you're reading this. Wouldn't want you to mess up your computer table after all~ Hahahaha~

Went to my parents' room, opened up mom's medkit, took out the iodine and the fun began. As most of you would know, iodine is the best antiseptic around (salt should be better though). And so, the more pain you feel, the better the effect. Nice touch eh? Gosh.. I couldn't stop smiling mann~ What a weird feeling indeed~

*kids.. don't try this at home*

All About Love

We've got CDs, tapes and videos, radios and TV shows
Conferences, retreats and seminars
We've got books and magazines to read on everything from A to Z
And a web to surf from anywhere we are
But I hope with all this information buzzing through our brains
That we will not let our hearts forget the most important thing is

Love love love love love...
It's all about
Love love love love love
Everything else comes down to this
Nothing any higher on the list than love
It's all about love

Now they're fighting in the Middle East
And they're fighting down on 7th street
And there are fights in my own house on given days
It's like something's lurking deep inside
That can't seem to be satisfied
But life was not meant to be lived this way
'Cause it's true for every man and woman, every boy and girl
That our only hope for living here together in this world is ...

Love love love love love ...it's all about
Love love love love love
Everything else comes down to this
Nothing any higher on the list than love
It's all about love

This is the reason we were made
To know the love of our creator
And to give the love He's given us away
Yeah, the Maker and the Father and the God of everything
He says to...

Love love love...
He says love love love
Love love love...
Cause after all it's all about love
God says...

Steven Curtis Chapman

food... *drool*

*drool before my food!*

I must admit, one of the best things about working at Kenny Rogers Roasters, is the darn good food dude~! But this is no ordinary meal that customers get to eat. You see, the meals that the crew eats are, well, "custom made" in a way. Whether it is extra bbq n black pepper gravy or cheese on chicken, we think of it and we make it, and ergo, we eat it.. Yea~ So last night, I had a really wholesome meal. Nothing beats not eating chicken. So I custom made for myself Tangy Chicken Spagheti with spring onions, baked rice with parmeson cheese, and mac and cheese sauce. For drinks, I had cappucino on ice with extra foam. What a treat after working for such long hours. Looks good doesn't it? Makes you drool on your computer table and wet yourself. Hahahaha~ Want to eat the same thing? Work at Kenny Rogers Roasters Mahkota Parade now~!

p.s. i wonder why am i promoting KRR.. hmm.. brainwash!

waitaminit.. it’s supposed to hurt rite?

*every step hurts, but life goes on eh?*

Okay, I woke up earlier yesterday right? I’ve forgotten to mention something interesting that happened to me earlier in that morning. Juz as I was coming out from the bathroom, I accidentally kicked the fiberglass door with my right foot. There was this stinging pain but as usual, I paid no attention to it. I dried myself with a towel and went to my room. All the sudden, that same stinging pain came back! When I looked at my right foot, my lil’ pinky’s toenail came off - completely! Hell it hurt like crap after I tried to pull it out, but it’s juz sooooo cool! The last time recall I ever had my nail completely out of place was when I met my 7th accident.. I think.. Can’t really remember you know. It’s like you’ve been eating all your life and you’ve forgotten what you had on this day, last year. Yea.. Something like that I guess. Anyway, back to the story. Since I was already kinda late for my “appointment”, I put some Iodine on the bleeding wound and plastered it down.

After coming out from my bath at night, I realize the thing has dried up a little bit. *grrr* Makes me wanna pull it out even more. I tell you, the pain was soooo enjoyable. Call me sadistic if you want, but if you ever had those days when you feel super tired in the morning and coffee juz won’t do, juz pull out your toenails! It’s magic I tell ya! Hhahahahahahaa~

GOD FOLLOWER

My heart is racing as I wander through this jungle
The trees above refuse to let the sunlight through
And somewhere deep inside I hear the whispered longings
That tell me I was made for more than this

A blinding flash of light falls down into the darkness
Slowly I notice strange new markings on the trail
The crimson drops are calling out to me come and follow
"I am the God who made you, let Me show you how to love"
And I cry...

I want to be a God follower
I want to go wherever He leads
I want to be a God follower
I want to walk the trail He's marked for me
And be a God follower
[More than anything]

And now I journey on with purpose and with passion
Just like a dead man who's been given breath again
And though this path can still grow dark with tears and sorrow
I know He will never leave me
So with everything I am I will say...

I want to be a God follower
I want to go wherever He leads
I want to be a God follower
I want to walk the trail He's marked for me

And when I reach God's place
I will look into His face
And then I'll look for you
Will I find you there?
Can you say with me...
I want to be a God follower
I want to be a God follower
I want to be a God follower
I want to be a God follower

Steven Curtis Chapman

wha-? it's only 7am?!!

Today is abit special I muz say. The plan was for me to wake up an hour earlier than usual, come to MMU in blistering cold of the morning, and line up for the new ID card. And so, the plan shall go ahead.. as planned. Though I slept around 1.30am (was chatting with Vera on msn for the first time!), waking up was never an issue for me. And so, I did - woke up 6am, took my bath, drank my coffee, and sped off to mmu.

I muz say, mmu in he morning is pretty calm. No noisy undergrads walking about and no loiterers too. It was juz me, the fresh breeze, and *ahem* the security guards. So I took my time walking to the Security Office, enjoying some pure virgin fresh air on the way. Saw a long line of about 60 to 70 people waiting for their IDs. Masked myself with a positive attitude and told myself to wait. After more than half an hour, the security guard informed everyone, "We will only make 50 IDs per morning, so you have to come back later in the evening."

*CRASH!*

I shouted at the guards, "WHA?! You mean I woke up at 6am for nothing?! What moronic imbecillic crap is that?!". *ahem* Or atleast I wish I did. Hehe~ And so, my 4 hours worth of sleep was wasted.

NOOOOooooooooooooooooooo!!!

and you thought working was fun

I've been asking myself lately, "Why in the world am I working?! Especially in this super busy/crappy semester?!". I try to reason with the reason of me working but then again, it juz doesn't make any sense at all. After much thought, I gave myself a few reasons:

1) For soon-to-be new X (that is, after I sell off the old one)

2) For my holiday trip to KL (last time we spent more than RM1k)

3) For something...

4) For something too...

Okay, I admit. It's stupid. Yes! I said it clearly! It IS stupid. I mean, it's not like I've never worked before or anything, so experience is totally out of the question. After all, I did started working when I was 14 years old. And to fill my time? Heck~! I need time mann! By working, I'm straining myself a lot. *sigh* Managing time is definitely not trade. I bet many of you know the feeling, wishing you had more than 24 hours in a day. I guess it's juz the "season". Can't wait till next semester.

But one thing's for sure, I gotta get that new X! Hehe~

INTO JESUS

I see the moon
A million stars are out tonight
Gentle reminders of the way You are
A sea of glass
A raging storm has come to pass
You show Your face in an array of ways

My feet may venture to the ground
But You would never let me down
I can't hold it in
My soul is screaming

Hey you, I'm into Jesus
Hey you, I'm into Jesus, oh yeah
Hey you, I'm into Jesus
Hey you, I've seen the truth
And I believe

I know You're there
I feel Your love through my despair
You speak the words that ease away the pain
My heart is free, my eyes are clear
My soul is healed
Now that You have got a hold on me

My feet may venture to the ground
But You would never let me down
I can't hold it in
My soul is screaming

Hey you, I'm into Jesus
Hey you, I'm into Jesus, oh yeah
Hey you, I'm into Jesus
Hey you, I've seen the truth
And I believe

I still believe, I still believe
Hey you, this kid is back
And I do declare that the Son is shining
Hey you, this kid is back
With a red alert cause it might be blinding
Hey you, this kid is back
And I do declare that the Son is shining
Hey you, this kid is back

My feet may venture to the ground

Hey you, I'm into Jesus
Hey you, I'm into Jesus, oh yeah
Hey you, I'm into Jesus
Hey you, I've seen the truth
And I believe

*declare it dudes!*

The Last GY Sunday

*already missing you, GY*

Well, yesterday morning was officially the last GY Sunday. After this, I dunno what's gonna happen. Lots of planning will be needed and the next Team Meeting will be one that's full of headaches. Well, since it's the last GY Sunday for us, we planned for FGA to drop by. And juz as arranged, the team from FGA KL came to our church this morning and we had a great time of praise and worship, not to mention the ever funny yet deep sermons from Ps Daniel Singh. Stepping in the hall suddenly brought a mirage of memories of the GY. Finally, I was home. I can’t believe it’s been more than 2 months since we last had a GY Sunday Service. Praise and worship was good, as expected from FGA. Made me wish that I was the one up there playing the X or the acoustic guitar.

Okay, I shall stop reminiscing and get back on track. *ahem*

After a very fulfilling worship, Ps Daniel went to the front and started sharing. His usual jokes and laughter lighten up the tense atmosphere - the side effect of not coming to GY for so long. They prayed for us and gave us some nice praise at the end of the meeting, which has always been a nice touch.

*oh, it's ONLY RM2000+.. rich kid*

Okay, so now everyone was fellowshipping and chatting about. Maybe it's juz some instinct reaction or something like that, because Allan, Jason Teh, Edward and I were drawn to check out the shining Ibanez X that was on the stand like a moth to the light. When asked how much it cost, the dude gave a smirk and told us it was RM2000+. Bah~! Rich kids~! It's an FGA thing. We took turns trying the X out. When it was my turn, the unexpected happened - I couldn't play my usual riffs! *gasp!* Am I THAT rusty?! I guess not touching my X for more than 4 months has taken its toll on me. I told myself that I would pick up my X again. Can't afford to loose touch in this kinda thing. I do pray that God would refresh my hands and fingers once again.

But juz as I held the Ibanez, I suddenly thought about the laksa I had at Orchard Road last Friday with SP and dad. Strange...

*the laksa dreams*