letting go?

im all out of love.. im so lost without you.. bla bla bla bla..

Who am I kidding? I'm filled with love! Right.. Can't back that up with words. They say an idle mind is the devils workshop and by golly they're right. *sigh* Aside from convertingcoolvideoclipsinto.aviformatsothatitcouldbeplayedonmyphone *breathes* I've been wondering a lot about my so-called "acomplishments". A sad fact that I've practically acomplish nothing worth mentioning.

I've been having weird dreams for the pass couple of days. For all that I can remember, my dreams were basically about one thing - me failing. Failing not as in academic wise or that sort but just basically failing. Like failing my parents, failing my brother, failing those people that I care for and love. The worst part is that in those dreams, I know I could do those things but no matter what, I couldn't - I failed them. Imagine waking up feeling like a failure for the past 3 to 4 days.

Such a worthless burden I carry with me. But to others, my burden is means a lot to them. I unconciously carry their burden hoping to lessen their worries and sorrow. Futile effort it may seem but I have the comfort of knowing that I did what I could.

3 Doors Down
Let Me Go

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you dont know who I am
So let me go
Let me go

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you dont know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go

And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows

You love me but you dont know who I am
I'm tore between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you dont know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go

and you me but you dont
you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont know who I am
and you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont
you love me but you dont know me