| mid terms, proms, and things like chemistry

I'm quite envious to see most of my friend's mid term is already over. All that they can think about now is the upcoming fiesta and prom and here I am sitting in front of my computer, studying my ass out for tomorrow morning's paper. yay.... *sigh* This sux~

But alas, there's still hope. There's always another tomorrow and after tomorrow, I'll be a little free for awhile. Next paper is on the 7th so I guess there's time to play so games and stuff. Speaking of games..

Two games that I'm definitely gonna get after my bloody e-Commerce paper is over! I don't care if I have a paper on the 7th, I'm gonna get Elder Scrolls IV : Oblivion! Neverwinter Nights 2 will have to wait, it'll be out during summer. No, not Malaysian summer. Malaysia's summer is everyday frickin (hot) day. Everyday, that is till God decides to pour some heavy rain on us, dried out creatures 3 days in a row.

I'm looking for Elder Scrolls IV now but it seems it's not out on the, *ahem* market yet. I'm trying to download it via torrent, but it's a whopping 4.18GB and after downloading 5 days in a row (minus my dc-status for 2 days) I'm only at 3.6%. Whoo-pee-doo~! ... *sigh*

Just got myself a haircut. Dad and bro got one as well. Actually, we had our haircut at the same time and I'm talking in circles. Circles sounds like circus doesn't it? Nevermind~ *Relient K's Gibberish playing in the background* People commented that my hair was too long and I looked scary and stuff. One of the worst comments I had was that I looked old.. and that came from my sister. *sigh* After much thought, I decided to get a haircut.

before - old, scary, lame

after - cute, cuddly, cool

Wow~! Don't I look young and vibrant?! So full of energy, jumping around like a bunny! Cheerful laughter resounds, "Hehehehe~" "Hohohoho~". Okay, that was kinda scary. Almost sounds like an episode of (evil) Teletubies. But seriously, I look years younger. In fact, I look like a secondary school student. Hehe~

..

Okay, so there isn't much of a difference, I admit it! Dammit! Dad's before and after wasn't really astounding too but bro's.. well.. have a look for yourselves..

before - brother

after - Ju On?

Damn, that aunty is good~

| plains of saints

In my journey I wander
Over mountains and hills
Over trees and seas
Over cities and people
Reaching out to their dreams

It is indeed strange to see
Them struggling to make ends meet
Making sacrifices just to please
Sons and daughters never cease

Their sweat and blood
Floods the earth and soil
The fire in their soul
Burns away the cold

As ashes to ashes
Tears flow down
And dusk till dawn
Another life around

In my journey I wander
Over plains of saints
In my life of wonders
God will lead the way

~wontdieone~

| .keyboard.teh-tarik.guitar.

Life just gets more and more interesting each day, don't you all agree? From fuel price spikes to the following inflation that some money-minded folks take advantage off. From terrorist-wannabes to trees crashing right in front of your precious YAC hall. Flat out heavy thunderstorms to a semi-heavy drizzle in the hot sun. By the way, those things will make you sick.

keyboard's direction in life

NOC4 is long gone and yet there's something about it that everyone remembers. The good.. the bad.. the pain.. the frustration.. the friendships. Mid-terms and crazy ass projects (i have 5 in total). Things just gets more and more interesting don't you say? Blame that lousy programming lecturer who doesn't know how to lecture. Or blame that emo dude that's next to you that's giving you a hard time.

finish it all in a gulp

Oh, what a lousy excuse for a car. One mile to go, but I can't push it that far. I think I've had enough. I think I'm, I'm giving up. Saved all my money to buy a new guitar. Then i got ripped off by the guy who fixed my car. I think I'm, I'm giving up. Getting all emo over a dead gold-fish. Feels like life's giving us a little breakdown. Stuck on the side of the road with emotional over-load. Breakdown~

what a lousy excuse for an (electric) guitar.. i love this one
hehe~

So the paragraph above was from Relient K and yes, I'm a fan. bleh~ As meaningless as some of their songs maybe, (Marilyn Manson ate my girlfriend ?) some of them DO make sense. It's the way they view life, the way they write their songs about it - they write it honestly. To experience the bittersweet. To taste defeat and then brush my teeth. So what in the world is this post all about? I have no idea. Good night peeps~

relient k
forward motion
whoa-o...i've been banging my head against the wall
whoa-o...for so long it seems i knocked it down
yeah it got knocked down
whoa-o...and the heating bill went through the roof
whoa-o...and the wall i knocked down was the proof
that my landlord needed to kick me out

i got evicted now i'm living on the street
my spirits lifted...oh wait, that wasn't me
too many turns have turned out to be wrong
this time i learned that, i knew it all along

when car crashes occur
then i'll be what you were
when i see what i should
when i see that it's good (that it's good)

to experience the bittersweet
to taste defeat
then brush my teeth
experience the bittersweet
to taste defeat
then brush my teeth

cause i struggle with forward motion
i struggle with forward motion
we all struggle with forward motion

cause forward motion is harder than it sounds
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again
it's harder than it sounds
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again

whoa-o...i've been banging my head against the wall
whoa-o...for so long it seems i got knocked out. yeah, i got knocked out cold
whoa-o...and the medical bills went through the roof
whoa-o...and the scar on my head is the proof
that i'll still remember this when i get old

i got evicted now i'm living on the street
my spirits lifted...oh wait, that wasn't me
too many turns have turned out to be wrong
this time i learned that, i knew it all along

when i grasp the concept
then i'll sleep where you slept
when i know i need help
when i allow myself (allow myself)

to experience the bittersweet
to taste defeat
then brush your teeth
experience the bittersweet
to taste defeat
then brush your teeth

cause i struggle with forward motion
i struggle with forward motion
we all struggle with forward motion

cause forward motion is harder than it sounds
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again
it's harder than it sounds
well everytime i gain some ground
i gotta turn myself around again

cause i struggle with forward motion
cause i struggle with forward motion
we all struggle with forward motion

| my all time favourite movie

Mark and I share a rather similar taste in movies, both of us like Forest Gump a lot!! >.< I've watched the show many times too and I really like how a simple, low IQ guy like Forest can make it big in the bad world without even realizing the significance of his actions. He plays table-tennis like a pro and he even met Elvis!

humans are a disease, a cancer of this planet.
you are a plague, and i am the cure

As mentioned in Mark's blog, Forest (played by Agent Smith) calls the police about the Matrix break-in, invents cheap-cloning without realizing it, invents the bumper sticker slogan "It Is Inevitable" and inspires John Lennon to help POD write "Sleeping Awake", and makes millions on Norton AntiVirus after infecting the whole of the Matrix.

run forest!! run!!

Aging Hippie:
Hey, man, hey, listen. I was wondering if you might help me, huh?
Listen, I'm in the bumper sticker business and I've been trying to
think up a good slogan. And since you have been such a big inspiration
to the people around here, I thought you might be able to help me
jump into... Whoa! Man, you just ran through a big pile of dogshit!

Forrest:
It's inevitable.

Aging Hippie:
What, shit?

Forrest:
Sometimes.

i believe that as a species, human beings define their reality through misery and suffering

In fact, I liked the movie so much, I took the trouble to remember some quotes from Forest. You can find these quotes throughout the whole movie, so do take your time looking for it okay? Go grab yourself a copy of the show, sit back with your guy/gal, relax and watch the show. Good nite peeps~

Forest :
I hate this place, this zoo, this prison, this reality,
whatever you want to call it. I can't stand it anymore. It's the smell,
if there is such a thing. I can taste your stink, and every time I do,
I fear I've somehow been contaminated by it.

Gal :
*Sob..*

what good is a phone call if you are.. unable to speak?

| its out! its finally out! muahahahaha!!

It's a Sunday, and on Sundays the CFers hardly meet at their humble hall called YAC. But today is different, today is special. Why? Because today, we're gonna be appreciated.

gals do think with their stomachs too~ blek~

It's NOC4 Appreciation Dinner!

savage~!

What better way to appreciate us than to stuff us with very large amount of food (we think with our stomach, unfortunately). Thanks to the effort of Vijay, we were able to enjoy some very nice Indian food. I personally liked the mutton. Heck, everyone loves mutton. *salivating*

Here's another surprise, NOC4 DVD/VCDs are out!! Time for an advertisement.

quality baik punya.. wahahaha..

- After long awaiting the arrival of the NOC4 DVD/VCDs, they're finally here!
- Quick~ Run to the nearest pasar malam Youth Alive Centre near you.
- *DVDs are for only a cheap price of RM18 and VCDs are for only RM15.

the drunk dude from noc4 is still drunk

*terms and conditions apply.

| when the world caves in

It seems that my previous post hurt someone. Though it was written out of frustration with the world, with empathy, and with love - people still do get hurt. I'm in no position to say who's right and wrong but, I'm sorry. One man's meat is another's poison. The man who made gun powder didn't expect it to be used in war. The man who made the machine gun meant for it to end all wars. Let me be in that list too then.

I was talking to my sisters. They have non-Christian bf and we talked about that topic for quite sometime but they mentioned something that I can't deny; "Sometimes, non-Christians are better than Christians". It's true you know, whether you like it or not. Still, in the end, I do know that we have one thing in common - we're still humans and humans make (a lot of) mistakes.

There's such a degree unfairness and hypocrisy that's going around but it's nothing new. It's an age old tale. Favourtism. Cliques. It has always been there. Gossips and back-stabs will never end. As much as we deny, we are all guilty of it - all of us.

As I have come to understand many years ago, most of these things weren't done intentionally. Nobody truly wants to back-stab others. People do their best to avoid favourtism. And everyone tries to do what they say. But most of the time, we fail - it is inevitable. After all, we're only human. *sigh*

as agent smith told jfk, "Only human"

But as I told GerX. What separates Christians from the rest, is that we have hope. We sure as heaven are not perfect but we have hope. We try. We do. We fail and we keep on trying again. I'm sorry to those I've hurt and there are many. To those who feels that the world treats them like shit, God loves you - and that's all that matters. Have hope people~

| crooked souls trying to stay up straight

Ya noe.. Personally, I don't really like to post up serious posts or 'emo' post or whatever. But I can't sit idle and not notice people struggling with hurt.. with despair. To them, their hurt surpasses all others and their efforts are hopeless. To them, the world has betrayed them and they're all alone. They call themselves fallen when they barely touched the ground.

Who needs enemies when you've got friends to do the job for you?

Why all this hurt? Why all this pain? Why turn away? Where's God? Needless to say, those are the most common questions. I'm not trying to say that their pain is meaningless. I'm just trying to say that there are better ways to deal with it. I remembered someone once told me, "Not everyone is as strong as you!". I'm not strong - not on my own at least.

If I'm always a sinner, a sinner shall I always be..

Some even take drastic actions while others cowardly run away. They think it's freedom when it's actually bondage. They think it's peace when it's actually emptiness. They think they're enjoying it, but it's a bomb waiting to blow up. They beat themselves up and act like heroes after a victorious battle. The truth is that they're just cowardly running away from the truth.

when Light hurts your eyes.. step into the Darkness

Turn away from the light and step into the darkness of your shadow? Why look to the darkness and think it's cool? God will never abandon you. His sun shines over you. Don't forget, the shadow proves the sun shines.

switchfoot
the shadow proves the sunshine

Sunshine, won't you be my mother
Sunshine, come and help me sing
My heart is darker than these oceans
My heart is frozen underneath

We are crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
The shadow proves the sun shine
The shadow proves the sun shine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast to the break of day light were
The shadow proves the sun shine
The shadow proves the sun shine

Oh Lord, why did you forsake me?
Oh Lord, don't be far away.. away
Storm clouds gathering beside me
Please Lord, don't look the other way

Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
The shadow proves the sun shine
The shadow proves the sun shine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast to the break of day light were
The shadow proves the sun shine
The shadow proves the sun shine

Yeah Yeah, shine on me
Yeah Yeah, shine on me
Yeah Yeah, shine on me
Yeah Yeah, shine on me

Crooked souls trying to stay up straight
Dry eyes in the pouring rain
The shadow proves the sun shine
The shadow proves the sun shine

Two scared little runaways
Hold fast to the break of day light were
The shadow proves the sun shine
The shadow proves the sun shine

Yeah Yeah, shine on me
Yeah Yeah, shine on me
Yeah Yeah, shine on me

Shine on me,
Let my shadows prove the sun shine

We're not perfect but we have hope. We try. We do. We're crooked souls trying to stay up straight.

| i love kids

Hey~! He answered correctly what?! ahaks~ Juz kidding.

| a very blessed birthday to a blessed person

It's 2.03am right now, well past 12am that marked the end of GerX's 20th birthday. As she put it earlier, "Having that '2' in front is not so bad after all,". I wonder how true is that? Who wants to have another number added to the front of their age? In another 10 years, it'll be a '3'. Another 10 years and a '4', and a '5', and a '6', and the next thing you know, you're (most probably but hopefully not) bald or shedding all that white hair, wearing a suit of wrinkled skin with an incomplete set of teeth. Yay to the old age~! ahaks~

. abby . hy . GerX . kl .

So how was her my day? Well, a class from 8am to 10am. Came home and waited till the clock striked 12.40pm - time for the show to began. Dropped my dad off and went to pick up the lucky candidates, anime/manga queen KL, sweet sweet shiny HY, the late still breathing Abby, and last but not the least bit least, the birthday gal, GerX. So yea, it's 4 gals and a guy. To all the guys out there - sucka! ahak~

soooo happy happy happy

A birthday wouldn't be a birthday without a hearty meal, no? So for lunch we went to dine in a not-really-so-so-famous western restaurant called Odean (O-de-en). The gals had fish and chips and chicken chop while me, being the ONLY (real) man, treated myself with a man's meal; I had lamb chop. So it's been awhile since I have had lamb in my mouth and I really gotta say, I do miss the taste. Awesome lamb at Odean. No kidding.

feed arr? feed larr~ don care~ blek!

Later we went to Secret Recipe to grab a few slices of cakes.. okay, 3 slices of cakes (and a banana split! >.< ). So say hello to,

from left; mr mud cake, bimbo new york cheese,
sir cappuccino cheese, and cheerleader banana split (not actual name)

Doesn't the sight of it water your taste buds with saliva that's now drooling all over your computer table, so much so that you've forgotten to put on your underwear.

..

Okay, so the last one was irrelevant but it doesn't matter and you know why? Because it's my blog. Yes, it's MY blog. Muahahaahahahahah~ T.T

.hy.hy.hy.hy.

It seems HY had sprained her ankle the other day coming done from a bus. I guessed she fell because I coincidentally passed by and she couldn't take her eyes off me. *ahem* She applied some bandage on her poor leg. Only one problem; the way she wrapped her leg is wrong. No wonder why it still hurts. Soooo, me being a (really really) good guy, volunteered to help wrap up her ankle for her at my place. After a really nice treat at Secret Recipe I took the gals to my humble adobe. Tour them around my house and showed them some of my dad's pets too. Hehe~ Wrapped HY's leg up nicely, watched some Astro and sent them back.

fudgeeeeee

Later we met up with GerX parents and they took GerX and I out for a nice dinner treat at Portuguese Settlement. When you hear the word Portuguese Settlement, the first thing that would come to your mind would definitely be hot-wet Eurasian girls running around in tubes their delicious sea food. Apart from the regular ikan bakar that people like to go to, I do suggest that you guys try out PS' sea food. It cost cheaper than the malays ikan bakar and cute girls serve you the dishes (that's if your lucky too). What more can one ask for eh? ahaks~

the open sea - the open.. thing

Last and least of all, at the end of the day, I gave her her long awaited birthday present. Everyone, say hello to Andy - it's a boy.

andy, say hello to GerX. GerX, say hello to andy~

Blessed Birthday to you GerX and also never forgetting my beautiful and lovely sister who couldn't join us, Sandra, Blessed Birthday to you too. May God bless both of you. Nite peeps~!

| an aussie's humour

~I have no creativity; therefore I forge~

*adapted from starmag, sunday 12 march 2006*

Here's a little Q&A from an Australian Tourism Website. The answers are the actual responses by the website officials and damn, do they have a good sense of humour. Aussies are cool people.

UK : Does it ever get windy in Australia?
I have never seen it rain on TV, how do the
plants grow?
A : We import all plants fully grown and
then just sit around watching them die

USA : Will I be able to see kangaroos
in the street?
A : Depends how much you've been drinking

Sweden : I want to walk from Perth to
Sydney - can I follow the railroad tracks?

A : Sure, it's only three thousand miles.
Take lots of water.

USA : Can you give me some information
about hippo racing in Australia?
A : A-fri-ca is the big triangle shaped
continent south of Europe. Aus-tra-lia is
that big island in the middle of the Pacific
which does not... oh forget it. Sure, the
hippo racing is every Tuesday night in
Kings Cross. Come naked.

USA : Which direction is north in Australia?
A : Face south and then turn 180 degrees.
Contact us when you get here and we'll
send the rest of the directions.

UK : Can I bring cutlery into Australia?
A : Why? Just use your fingers like we do.

USA : Can you send me the Vienna Boys'
Choir schedule?
A : Aus-tri-a is that quaint little country
bordering Ger-man-y, which is... oh forget it,
Sure, the Vienna boys Choir plays every
Tuesday night in Kings Cross, straight after
the hippo races. Come naked.

UK : Can I wear high heels in Australia?
A : You are a British politician right?

Germany : Are there supermarkets in Sydney
and is milk available all year round?
A : No, we are peaceful civilization of vegan
hunter/gatherers. Milk is illegal.

USA : Please send a list of all doctors in
Australia who can dispense rattlesnake serum.
A : Rattlesnakes live in A-meri-ca which is
where YOU come from. All Australian snakes
are perfectly harmless, can be safely handled
and make good pets.

USA : I have a question about a famous
animal in Australia, but I forget its name.
It's kind of a bear and lives in trees.
A : It's called a Gum Drop Bear. They are so
called because they drop out of Gum trees and
eat the brains of anyone walking underneath
them. You can scare them off by spraying
yourself with human urine before you go out walking.

France : Do you have perfume in Australia?
A : No, WE don't stink.

USA : I have developed a new product that
is the fountain of youth. Can you tell me
where I can sell it in Australia?
A : Anywhere significant numbers of Americans gather.

France : Do you celebrate Christmas in Australia?
A : Only at Christmas.

USA : Will I be able to speak English
most places I go?
A : Yes, but you'll have to learn it first.

Have a good laugh peeps~ Good night~!

| people destroy themselves

Why the title you ask? For fhuunn~ Just feel like putting that as a title, that's all. A basic fact that can be easily understood.

looks like a scene from some cheap horror show

Animals are a fun thing to play with. No, I'm talking about torturing them or anything like that. I'm a nice guy okay? Hehe~ Exotic pets are classified into 2 types. One, the always-moving-around-nice-to-play-with pets like snakes and ferrets. Two, the uber (yes, i said uber) cool pets-that-are-boring-but-look-cool-wearing-sun-glasses like scorpions and tarantulas. Three, the uber cool nice-to-feed pets like Alligator Snapping Turtle and the latest dubbed-coolest-by-me, Ornate Horned Frog aka Pac Man Frog.

pac man meet bull frog, bull frog meet *gulp~*.. nevermind..

Why call it Pac Man Frog? Because it practically eats anything and everything - no kidding. It's mouth is half the size of its head. Imagine your head from side view; now picture your mouth reaching to the middle of your head. Got that? That's a Pac Man Frog. Today I got the chance to see my father feed it - an American Bull Frog. A bullfrog for crying out loud! Cooool~

*ding-a-ding-a-ding*
~change topic~

Today I had satay celup for dinner. My mom had just got back home safely from her trip to Singapore and so my dad decided to have something nice for dinner. The choice? The food that Singaporeans utterly hate fear - satay celup~ To them, satay celup is a disgusting food but still, they secretly come over to Melaka just to have a taste of it. One can tell, that they are Singaporeans; dress rather decent, having 2 to 3 kids, and above all, followed by a maid that's sitting outside their circle, staring into space. I pity the maid.

such a lovely meal no? hehe~

| everyone can sing! except me~

Yaya~ I've been sesated for quite sometime. Been very busy with many uni stuffs. Heck, I have 5 blardy projects this semester mann! What in the world are those admin thinking?! But thank God those big CF projects like NOC4 are long over.

I just came back from a competition. A singing competition to be exact. It's MMU English Language Society : The Stage. Initially, I was supposed to take part but I didn't, as it was quite rushing and I received some wrong info concerning it and now, I'm regretting - a lot! Why? Because the grand prize is cold-hard-cash; 400 buck-a-roos~ I know I sound like some money-minded freak, but I assure you, I'm not. Hehe~

you rocked dude~ all thanks to that guitar.. hehe~

Fortunately, 2 other CF members took part, namely Justin and Wayne. Justin was up first and he played Collide. Unfortunately, due to some technical error, he wasn't able to perform his 100%. The jack had some problem and after quite a long time, they resorted to do it unplugged. I don't know if anyone could tell, but I felt that he was distracted by the initial problem and couldn't really concentrate on the song. He could've won mann~ A serious waste but nonetheless, you rock Justin!!

he was jackson, now he's buble'

Wayne on the other hand, fared better with his Michael Buble', Kissing A Fool. He won the damn competition dammit! 400 buck-a-roos went flying away from my grasp. *sob sob* Just joking. I'm actually, seriously happy for that dude. He has always wanted to prove his talent to people and now, he finally did it. Not only did he won cash, I bet his 'saham' sky-rocketed after that fateful event. Good for you dude~!

the fools.. and we didn't kiss~

Another 2 people who made it in the finals were friends of mine. Well, actually only one of them is my friend, the other is my good friend's sister. Chua Ee Jin's gal, Anne and his sister, Hui Ying both took part and *ahem* Anne did much better than his sister. Hey~ Atleast I'm honest right? Happy for you dude! ahaks~

Well, as much as I wished I'd join the competition, in the end, I did not. I'm a loser~ A coward~ A failure~ I know I could've atleast got 3rd but it doesn't matter. *sob sob* Oh well, I don't care. There's always next year right? *looks to the sky* Ahhh~ Yes, there's always next year.

| it's a lonely world out there

I just got back from a great super-short holiday. Though throughout the holiday there were many shocking surprises and "bad" stuffs that happened but it was still all good larr. Some were very testing while others were just filled with kindness and forgiveness. All in all, it was good (and fhuuun).

in the words of su bee, "whatever~"

Lets go into emo mode now. I can't help but noticing how everyone around me are falling out of love, breaking up, and hurting one or each other. While some have good reasons and intentions, others are truly selfish and despicable. Hell, there's no such thing as a good reasons larr. Simply put, breaking up is just hurtful and bad and best avoided unless forced to.

lonely.. lonely nation

Naturally, everyone would say "got no choice maaa..", or "he say, she say, that he said before, that the girl say, that..", in the end it all boils down to the intentions of the heart. I don't want to hear your reasons, I just want to hear your heart. Let your heart speak what it truly feels. It's a shame to hide it and it's even more shameful to lie about it. Remember Corinthians mann.. I know I do.

~end of emo post~

Michael Buble'
Home

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
"I’m fine baby, how are you?"
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be allright
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

| they cut off my line?

Hmmm.. I have a theory. Because of my earlier post about a certain blardy broadband, my ISP somehow got a good look at my blog, traced my IP and kill off my connection. Yea~ It's all part of a big scandal..

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I WANT MY CONNECTION BACK!!