| if it doesnt work out

Exams are near. The days are turning blue. Night comes a little earlier and morning sleeps a little late. The food is getting cold and my water is as murky as ever. People pick me up and pet my head, giving me the moment of security and feeling of being loved. But before you know it, they get bored of you and they throw you aside. So there I am, reluctantly being pushed and moved against my will. Hell, I don't even belong in this place. Should I retaliate, I would be punished. What a life I have. What a life that I don't deserve.

"he's talking about me" - bearded dragon in blue

The kick-off has already begun. My moment of truth has arrived. Well, actually it'll arrive in more or less 7 hours time. Yea~ It's my first paper. WHAT AM I DOING BLOGGING?!! *sigh* Oh well, I guess I've done what little I could - the rest I'll leave it up to God. That's the safest thing I can do. Blessed are the shallow, depth they'll never find right? Still, if I was not so weak. If I was not so cold. If I was not so scared of being broken, growing old. I would be.. frail~

even an artist requires protection

Though some of you guys have already started fighting the finals, I hope it's not too late for me to wish all of you, good luck and God bless. More of the God bless in my part. *smiles* I'm having mixed feelings over my final schedule. For one they really placed my subjects in order, my weakest subject is the first, and my best the last. Gee~ Thanks a lot. I just hope that I can pass this subject, that's my target for my 9am paper that's coming soon. If I don't pass..

*pulls trigger*

Too bad for me, I'm WontdieonE. Ahaks~ Good night peeps!

| august the 15 wasn't so long ago

       Though I doubt you would be reading this, I'll still post it anyway. Just last month we celebrated your birthday, your 53rd birthday to be precise and to me, you haven't age a single bit. *smiles* Just to tell you my feelings for tonight.

but the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair

       Was looking at the picture we took on your 53rd birthday. I can't help but keep on smiling as I look at each single picture. All of them carried many thoughts and emotion. Each of them seemed to be alive. I do hope you had a blast in that short period of time. This post is for you..

In your heart, I know that all you truely want is a God-fearing and loving family - a normal family. Just like those in family portraits.

Unfortunately, we aren't normal and we aren't portraits. But still, I know you're satisfied with it as it is.

Did you enjoyed your birthday dinner? I enjoyed it, everyone did. I hope you did too. We ate and ate and ate till we had a second stomach. I know I did.

This pic looks kinda old school eh? But I know you would liked it. A simple photoshop filter and the picture shall endure eternity.

I'm glad to be able to take that picture of you and dad. You guys look great - young and healthy. Looking 40, acting 30.

But it wouldn't have happened without your little BIG son. The oldest sibling - my brother. He plotted it all. To him the credit be given.

But as much as we tried, we aren't normal. At least I know I'm not.

Still, we wouldn't be here without you. Sure dad played a part too but I guess the sperm isn't as important as the ovum, right?

So give your older child a treat. Feed him right, teach him the Law of God, and guide him through his roughest of days.

Thank you both too, bro and grace, for that cool jacket that made me look awesomely stunning. Now to fend off those chicks..

All in all, we, the Younger Cool Liu Brother and the Older Then-Nerdy Liu Brother would like to wish you a Happy Birthday Mom.

Especially me, your youngest child. Sure I did all the chores and made your life as easy as I could, I'm still trying to be an angel that you love. It's hard.. It really is. But you do know that I try and I'll always keep on trying till I get it right - I won't give up.

After all, I'm not your average normal child - I'm special in your eyes.

So I pray that you had the time of your life. Sorry for all the dumb things and thank you for all the great things. Especially you ovum. Good nite Mom.

| stepping into high gear : rally

It's exam week. The tension is heavy in the air. Student are scramming all over, flooding ANY library they can find. Some would even crack open lecture halls or rooms just to get some solitude from the world to study for the most important exam of the semester. Ladies and gentlemen, men and woman, young and all, I proudly present to you: MMU Exam Week 2005 *cheers*. What in the world am I doing blogging and reading manga?! You're sucha freak Andrew! *sigh* Indeed I am, a freak. A freak of nature. A Jesus Freak. *dcTalk music resounds* Okay, okay. Enough with the corniness (warning: corniness IS a real word).

the song Jesus Freak resounded in song So Long My Friend

But seriously, everyone.. well, almost everyone I know are stepping into high gear, just like a rally car, studying very hard for their subjects as the finals draw nearer. To their minds, they're running out of time to study. I wonder if I feel the same way. Jess spoke on behalf of me today. More like she took the words right out of my mouth. She said, "Why is everyone thinking they're running out of time? I on the other hand can't wait for it to come so that I can just get it over with~". Heh~ Right out of my mouth. Nice one Jess.

you took my words away...

Oh well, at least I had fun today. Went out to dinner with GerX. Sounds the usual? Noooo.. Nooo Indiano, noooo.. *ahem* GerX brought along 2 very good friends, namely Hui Yin and Jess. Here's the twist, GerX's younger bro, we shall call him GerXbrO, in his Wira 1.5 SE took us out for dinner. Yay~ Something away from the norm. At first we thought of eating at Jusco, but somehow I think he took it too seriously when I jokingly said, "lets eat at town". Well, like they say in malay, ada rezeki jangan ditolak.

his bro's driving needs improvement

So there we were, 2 guys 3 girls (yes, Jess is a girl) in the heart of Malacca, looking for a decent food court that we can eat in, cruising in a brand new Wira 1.5 SE. Some people are just fortunate eh? But I'm satisfied with what I have. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! As we pass the Portugese ship, someone in the car (not me) exclaimed, "Hey~ Burger King open already or not?". "Yes~". Once again we side-track into MP in search for some good burgers. Burger King MP looks like the other Burger Kings in Malaysia - I think. The funny part about the whole dinner thingy was that they ran out of lettuce and veggie to put in the burger. Meaning we ate our burgers without lettuce and veggie. Think, just buns and meat. Yummy? I have no comments. Met my old buddy Yong aka Yong Tau Foo back from my old MHS days and Bandar Hilir days. Yea~ We're that old friends.

seen this baby? Lancer Evo IX

On our way out, I decided to check out the Mitsubishi Car Showcase that was display. Too my utmost surprise, there it stood, a beautiful red angel called Lancer Evo IX. IX is 9, just in case you guys didn't know. Ahaks~ They rigged that beautiful car into a rally game. So you control the game from inside car while the huge screen is infront of you. How cool is that?! As a car enthusiast and a rally/drifting fan I wrote my name to play that rally simulation. While I wait my turn, I took the initiative to study the track. Not too tricky, very wide roads. Looks easy. Not to be cocky or anything, but those dudes really don't know how to drive in a rally. Their time ranges from 2.00 minutes and above and they crashed more than 4 times. Some of them played it more than once and still got that time. Sad eh?

now see this!!

Since I trashed talk them so much, it was my turn to show what I'm made of. To my delight, the interior is quite similar to rally specs. A heavy MOMO steering and a up-down 6-speed gear transmission. Got in those Sparco seats and got myself ready. Down-side, no brakes. No brakes?! How do you survive a rally with no brakes? Not a big problem, just needed to keep my cool and lets see how this party goes. Started full speed and tried to get use to the handling of the car, I'm driving an Evo VIII after all - I got used to it. Easily beat the ghost car of the previous driver, slided through some tough corners, crashed once, cross the lap and times' up. My time; 1.55 minutes. The fastest dude was 1.42 minutes but he played more than 4 times to get that score. I knew I could beat him if I played it the second time but I guess time doesn't permit me to do so. Every fun day has to end I guess. Gotta love rallying. Nite peeps!

im seating in a Evo IX!!

im a poor guy that likes expensive stuff - that's sad

| charlie and the choc... wait... this ain't about him!

tv darkness - the cinematic experience

It's already midnight but that porridge that mom made earlier for dinner didn't quite hit my taste buds. Don't get me wrong, mom makes delicious porridge but on my part, I prefer the good ol' plain porridge and side dishes. Yea~ The good ol' fashion way. So, like a crouching tiger or a hidden dragon my stomach is still stalking for things to eat. Oooo~ Profound eh?

i can sense my prey is near

Was looking around the kitchen to see if there's anything for me to munch on - nothing. I wonder how I can survive in a house without any snacks lying around. Sun flower seeds doesn't count as midnight snacks, thank you. I'm too lazy to boil water and cook some maggie mee. We're out of bread and I'm tired of licking peanut butter from a spoon (it's fun i tell ya!). I'm sucha sad person.

Julie has a weird smile

Lo and behold, from a distant I saw a bright shining light. As I drew closer to it, I was bedazzled by its beauty. There it stood tall, in its red hard shell. Julie's Cheese Crackers. I opened it up, peeked inside and I promise you, the malay word masuk angin was written all over. But it's okay, I'm won't give up that easily. A simple 2 minute microwave sup it up from weak to bold and crunch.

not to be confused for a confused pedophile

As I stared at the simple biscuit for over a minute, I got bored of it already. Thus, I decided to put my baking skills to the test. I think it's call baking. If it's not then I'm sorry. Ahaks~ The ingredient; Barne's Blue Gum Honey (not to be confused with a purple pedophile), made from the finest Australian bee hives and processed by very hard-working worker bees that are controlled by an evil world-dominating queen bee, and of course Condensed Milk Kept In Peanut Butter Container Who's Name Shall Be Known As Anonymous. Now you might be thinking, "What is this guy trying to make?!". I'm asking myself that exact same question - really.

wu ming condensed susu

Pre-heat toaster. While waiting, pour honey over a set of biscuits. Set timer : 3 minutes. Tried to catch some lizard, it escaped. *ding* It's ready. *evil grin*. Sweet fumes rushed out of the toaster and something tells me I'm either the smartest person in my family the world or I'm just plain stupid. Took a bite and checked if I was still alive. *pause* Yea, I'm still alive. It was certainly quite surprisingly nice. No, I'm not being sarcastic. It really IS nice. Bleh~

doesn't the sight of it tickle your taste buds?

Pre-heat toaster again. This time I dipped the biscuits in the condensed milk and put them on the tray and toasted it for 3 minutes. So the sight of the condensed milk bubbling up freaked me a little but to me, it doesn't matter how it looks like because I know how it will look like when it comes out. Ahaks~ Took it out and put them on a plate. Took a bite. The verdict.. Yea~ It's better than the honey ones. It's so good that bro and I ate the whole thing! Maybe we have a secret taste for sweet things.

clean plate! clean plate!

Bro wasn't satisfied so he wanted to make his old concoction of milo and condensed milk to be eaten with the biscuits. I baked whatever that's left in the tin in the microwave for 2 minutes. While waiting we searched for the milo powder and to our horror, we couldn't find it. *gasp!* But the biscuits are already in the microwave! We can't just eat it like that! We needed something to go with it! Solution, since we don't have milo powder, why not use coffee powder? Ahhh~ Nescafe never fail to surprise me.

Ooo.. Ahh.. Nescafe?

Bro made the solution while I took the biscuits out. Unfortunately, bro put too much water in the mixture making it water-down, very water-down. Not to mention that, some of the biscuits were burnt. I wonder why only some of the biscuits were burnt while the rest was perfect in a microwave. Weird. As I said, we didn't really care and continued to have our little supper. Dipped cheese biscuits in weird concoction as we chatted away. That's what I call supper.

I have no idea how it got burnt

twist lick dunk!

Good night peeps!!

| finally, the finals are comin

I wonder how many people can really say they're already ready for this big baby. I know I'm not - definitely not. I only fear one subject. Yea~ Just one, one and only one. It's my worst subject this semester and honestly, I'm hoping for a pass. That's how bad it is. I would complain and say that the lecturer suck, which she really does, but I guess it's partly my fault too.

Today is CF's last meeting for the semester. After this, there will be many lonely Tuesdays. So, to fill up the missing meter for the CF, we're gonna have Praise and Worship night! Yup~ It's the night solely dedicated to, well, praise and worship God. Cool huh? It's a tradition larr. I'll be playing as part of the main worship team. Ivy's worship leading tonight and I do hope she'll do fine. Just gotta give her a little more confidence and she'll do great.

Because CF is sooo cool, it doesn't end there. After the main band steps down from the stage.. wait, there is no stage. Ahaks~ What will follow is a song presentations by the CF'ers who wish to bless other CF'ers with those divine tunes. It's a moment where we can truely give God back what He "gave" us. Therefore, I'm practicing with my band to play the first song that I've ever learn on a guitar (from my bro). I remember it so clearly, like it was the raindrops from yesterday. I was 12 years old, my bro held my hand and thought me how to press those strings that sunk into my flesh. With it's simple Em, D, G chords, God pulled me into His grace and gave me this talent. Since then, I've always love this song. It's a long song for my savior.

jars of clay
love song for a savior

In open fields of wild flowers
She breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for
The daisies and the roses
In no simple language
Someday she'll understand
The meaning of it all

He's more than laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
Fall in His arms and her tears will fall down
And she'll pray

I want to fall in love with You
I wan to fall in love with You

Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
Sermon echoes through the wall
A great salvation through it
Calls to the people
Who stares into nowhere
Can't feel the chains on their soul

He's more than laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him we'll learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
Fall in His arms and the tears will fall down
And we'll pray

I want to fall in love with You
I wan to fall in love with You

Seems too easy to call You Savior
Not close enough to call You God
So as I sit and think of
Words I can mention
To show my devotion

I want to fall in love with You
I wan to fall in love with You