| a special message to the jackass crew

HAPPY HOLIDAYS KONN MANNS!!

| a day in my mind

Ever wonder what a day is like in my mind? No? Neither do I but I'm still gonna post it anyway.. bleh~

~it started with a lovely breeze..

..memories of final's fallout lingers in the atmosphere..

..so much so it made me dark - literally..

..the free meal cheered me up a little though..

..but i still felt like i was chained next to a mini-broom..

..a surprise and confused bird trapped in its feathers..

..lo and behold, a Mazda RX-8 appeared before me..

.."pfft.. rich kid", i thought to myself..

..but 30 minutes later, he was still there..

.."i think he's mocking me" - annoyance filled my mind

..i decided to chase after him..

..but our difference are so great..

..it felt as if (s)he held a gun to my face..

..but i guess it's a dog-eat-dog world out there~

Good nitez peeps~ Happy Holidays to MMUians!

| cold sweat

I haven't had a nightmare in ages. Today I had one. It's quite freaky really as it held a lot of truth, and that frightens me. After having dinner with my parents around 9pm, I dunno why but I lie down on my bed and just wanted to let time pass me by. I wanted to catch House on AXN but I guess I somehow fell asleep.

when everything inside me..

So, we don't know when we fall asleep right? We just do. But in the back of my mind, I'm supposed to be awake as I wanted to catch a show on tv, so the dream was rather realistic. From here, it becomes twisted. I dreamt that I was possessed - slowly. It's not immediate but rather, it was a slow process. That's not the scary part, the scary part was right in the end of the dream I heard something whispering to me - "my demons are still in me after all.."

..looks like everything i hate..

I woke up only to find my mom switching off the light. She told me it was already 1.30am and I dozed off since we got back from dinner. She left the room and there I was sitting all alone in the darkness. I thought back about the end of the dream, "my demons are still in me after all..". A sudden flash back of my past knocked me to the edge of my bed and I kept thinking if it's true. Are my demons still in me?

..You are the hope i have for change..

Sure I've done stupid things in the past. Sure I screw lots of people up and hurt tons of innocent people. Sure I've done things that I thought I would never do. Heck, even my family didn't know about my half-life. But I knew it would always haunt me no matter what I do to redeem myself. I guess that's why I go around with a smile and try my best to do what I can.

..You are the only chance i'll take

I've said it before and I'll say it again, I regretted all those things I've done and I know that there's nothing much I can do to make it go away. For as long as the memories are embedded in the minds of people, I'm forever guilty I guess. But God being God, gave me one shot at redemption - I took it.

| how's your holiday exam coming along?

It's already nearing 3am. Once again I sit here in my room all alone while the rest of them are studying over at bro's room. Why am I not studying?! Can't find the mood? No. Too confident? Hopefully not. Too dunno what to do? Yes~

You took the weight of the world on Your shoulders

I've been so-called designing wallpapers for my phone that I suites my current liking in a particular time. It takes patience and lots of creative juice from my over un-used mind. Ahaks~ Call it 'too free liao' or call it 'siao' but I managed to make a new one a few days back. After taking a few vain shots of myself (atleast im honest enough to admit it.. bleh~), I chose the one that's suitable for the design process. Some of them look rather plain, some I can't display here due to.. *ahem* reasons.. and some just sound very corny. Especially the one I'm currently working on. It looks quite complete but I feel it's not yet the time to put it in my phone. I may change it in the future. See how lorr.

the first

the current

the soon to come?

Went out yam cha with my course mates after a late-night study thingie. Was trying to catch back what I've long left rusted in the corner of my mind. After doing what I could, we eventually chatted away into the night before deciding to go for some yam cha'ing. But through out the whole yam cha session, we were bullying and teasing a friend of ours, Vinci or mosquito in Chinese. We had such a blast of a time that Shyne made a cool logo of our "bombing" team. Hehe~ Nice one larr Shyne!

the pure vip, the lumpy wannabe, wontdieone, lil goth queen

| battlefield 2 : yet again

Andrew : Yay~! 3 papers down! Holiday!! Holiday!!! Wahhahaahahahaahah!!

Anonymous : Wait.. don't you have your last paper on Thursday morning?

Andrew : So? *clueless-innocent face*

It's quite scary when I look at myself in the mirror after waking up (what's new huh?). I mean, my finals aren't officially over and here I am in my holiday mode. Scary.. Take today for example, I slept around 2am last night, woke up at 9am and accidentally (honest!) skip church with my folks, went back to sleep, woke up, took a bath and had porridge for lunch, went back to sleep, woke up at 6pm and slacked throughout the whole day. I feel like a zombie now. But after checking out the mirror, I'm convinced that I am a zombie. Ahaks~

wing formation Delta!

Been playing Battlefield 2 a lot recently. It's really an addictive capture-as-many-flags-while-killing-every-single-enemy-that-stands-in-your-way game, so much so my bro who's studying for his finals too got sucked into a vortex of laziness. Wait - he IS lazy what~ Ahahahahah~ Me bad, me bad. Still, it's fun watching him play and get all excited about the game, making all the sound effects, shouting commands to his deaf and stupid AI comrades. My personal favourite moment is watching him trying to capture the flag but got killed just before he got a hold of it. Ahhhh~ Priceless.

almost there.. almost there.. *BOOM!* .. damn..

I've suddenly got back my fascination of vampires. A couple of vampire movies and you would feel the same too. Think Blade, Queen Of The Damned, etc etc. Since biting other peoples' neck and drinking their blood is illegal (maybe not biting), I needed an alternative to satisfy the "hunger". Thus, I once again installed a game that uses the Source engine even before Half-Life 2 was released, Vampire The Masquerade : Bloodlines. A really cool game based on White Wolf's pen and paper Vampire : The Masquerade RPG series. So all ye fans of White Wolf, do check it out. The name Source might be impress many but still, the game has some minor bugs that irritates a little sometimes but as long as the hunger is satisfied, I have no complains. So do becareful of the Children Of The Night... GO STUDY LARR!!