Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Oooo.. Wednesdays

With only 2 hours of lecture for the whole day, I'm a happy man.. really.. Hahaha. I don't feel tired or anything, I just feel great~! Hehe~ Maybe it's because I'm gonna watch Spiderdude 2 later tonight.. Hhmmm.. Could be a reason... Bah~! I dunno and don't care anyway~ I just like feeling great~ Hehe~

Well.. Now I'm sitting at home, the time; 12.10pm and I'm a free dude~ I was trying to find reviews for AGP adapters but couldn't get what I wanted (so much for Google). Maybe later I'll go find Allan Teh and ask for his opinion. It seems my bro is really desperate to buy a new com; he keeps pestering me with it. I don't understand that part of him though. I'm the gamer of the family and if anyone would wanna buy a new computer with awesome specs it would be me, right? Wrong.. From what I know, I wouldn't get the com until my house is able to get Streamyx (tmnet sux) or any broadband. My main reason for getting the com would be games (and studies ofcourse ^^). After all, I am studying IT. But my bro... Hhmmm... I don't understand... Oh well.. I trust he has a good and logical reason for his actions.

So much for now I guess.. I'm gonna play GTA: Vice City now.. Hehe~ Finished the game twice already and this would be the 3rd time. Later~

E|ina Goh?

Hhmmm.. It's been a long time since I last saw here or actually had a conversation with her, but let me introduce you to my sis; Elina Goh.
Haha.. The truth is, I'm having mental blog now.. Since I can't think about anything to write, I'll write about the sis I never had.

Ok, I knew her when I was in Form 3, and she was in Lower 6. It was during CF that she introduced herself. She gave a really good impression on the younger dudes (including myself) with her testimonies; how she came from a non-Christian family and got saved a couple of months back. Eventhough her family pressured her and persecuted her, she remain firm in the Lord and it's because of that, I truely admire her.

Eventhough that time she was a new believer, she had a burning passion inside her. For those who know my bro and me, we know sign-language right? It was she who 1st tought us and from there our interest grew. She even gave each of us a sign-language dictionary (she gave my bro for his 17th Birthday.. Cool huh?). So after much practice, we were able to communicate with our hands, instead of mouth. I'm going to demonstrate sign-language now. Watch closely.................................................
Woah~! Cool huh? Bet you didn't understand what the hell that meant. Wahahaha.

Well.. To conclude, she's a great gal who faced many trials and tribulation and still remained strong as ever in the Lord. She's my older sis; E|ina Goh~

Tuesday, June 29, 2004

10:05am - Penta Lab

This is the 2nd time I'm getting this from the lecturers. Uninformed canceling of classes.. They make the tired and fatiqued students wait outside the lecture hall only to be inform then that the class is cancelled.. So sad.. So sad.. Why don't we talk this over.. It seems to me, sorry seems to be the hardest word... lalala... Right...

Anyway, now I'm in the CITS Penta computer lab writing this blog and waiting for time to pass me by as my next lecture, Computer Systems and Application will be at 11am. It's real peaceful here. No noise, just the sound of mashing keyboards and clicking of mouses.

You know, I put on a good attitude this morning as I know that today is my busiest day of the week(8am - 1pm n 4pm - 6pm). Eventhough I'm tired I knew I had to have a positive attitude but instead, I was dissapointed.. I'm quite tired now but I will hold on if you feel like letting go, hold on it gets better than you know.. This world is cold but you don't have to go.. lalala..

Sorry~ Hahahaha. I feel abit weird in the upper room today. Must be the effects of lack of sleep. I almost (but didn't) fell asleep today during MicroEcon. It was so booooringgg man.. The dude was yapping and yapping about quizziez and exercisez. Oh well.. I guess that's the uni life...

Monday, June 28, 2004

Waa... Tired leh..

Wow... I gotta stop doing this. You know how people tend to get very exhausted after their holiday and they need to rest from their holiday? I'm experiencing that now.. I mean, I slept at 5am and had to wake up at 9am for church. Not only that, I slept at 2am that very night where I had to wake up at 7am to go to uni... Crap man... If you guys read my previous blog, my last lecture finish 3pm and my work starts at 4pm.. Killer.. Wahahaha. Tiring myself out IS fun. Sigh..

Dumb Ass Lecturers~!!! (Dumb Assistant Lecturers)

I woke up it was 7... Bathe, crap, and changed till it's 7.30... Just to figure out that no one would call... lalala...
Last night I slept at 1.30am (early huh?) and it was raining (Yea~!!!). I could hear the sound of raindrops hitting the house roof and feel the cool hair slip in through the window... "Ahh... This is going to be a good night."... Or so I thought... Woke up feeling so tired I could eat a cow~! (<--- doesn't make any sense..) Anyway, everything was normal. Woke up, washed up, changed, and went to MMU. Actually, I thought I was late so I quickly came in the lecture hall only to find that the lecturer wasn't in yet. I sighed in relief.. So there I was chatting with my friends about what they did in the hols.. But then... There was a strange atmosphere.. Everyone was looking at their watches.. It was already 8.25am and there was no sign of the lecturer (Gasp~!). At first, the students were cool about it. Then, signs of restlessness began to surface... The lecture hall became chaotic~ The girls were screaming (and the guys were enjoying it). Finally, a gal stood up and shouted, "CLASS CANCELED!!" and there was a syncronized, "CRAP LARR~!!" from everyone... I was like, what the hell, I got up at 7am for THIS?! I mean like, I could've slept till 1pm and wake up then for my next lecture~!! Arrghh~! I'm so tired~!!

The Day Before Tomorrow....... i think...

Well.. it's exactly past 12am signaling the end of my precious somewhat meaningful 1 week holiday... Well, lets summarize this holiday shall we?... Can't find the words to describe it. All I know is that in this holiday, I got a horrible backache from playing table tennis and badminton too hard at Malacca Club but at the same time got to enjoy quality time with my family, I was also able to spend quality time with my love one, and so-called "celebrate" my bro's birthday with a visit back to Asahan and got a horrible backstab from him (I'm immune to backstabs anyway, so no harm done ^^). But... I feel that I have neglected my guitar because of this blog stuff. Sigh.. Not to mention the fact that I'm trying to sell my electric guitar so that I can get a new and better. So, time to advertise; 2nd-hand Fender Squire Showmaster (1 year old) for RM1000-RM1200, original price-RM1600. Quickly grab it before someone else does~! *end of advertisement*. Back to the topic... Got tons of lectures tomorrow, not to mention I have to work after my lecture. So tomorrow's gonna be a looooong day. Sigh.. To look at it positively, atleast I'll get some extra cash. Wahahaha. I'm broke and poor... No kidding... Not to mention today (or yesterday to be precise) I thought long and hard about my future plans... Even thought of going to Singapore to work there for awhile to gain some good experience and get some easy cash but... I guess I'll leave it all to God. Hahaha~ In the end... It's not a bad holiday after all... I'm looking forward to life~ What a day...

Song for today:-

UNITED - Where The Love Last Forever

Your mercy found me
Upon the broken road
And lifted me beyond my failing
Into Your Glory
My sin and shame dissolved
And now forever Yours I'll stand

In love never to end
To call You more than Lord
Glorious Friend

So I throw my life upon all that You are
Cause I know You gave it all for me
And when all else fades
My soul will dance with You
Where the love last forever

And forever I will sing
Lord forever I will sing
Of how You gave Your life away
Just to save me Lord You saved me

With You, where the love last forever

Sunday, June 27, 2004

Another song...

This song came to my mind when I read a certain blog today, a blog that worried me alot.. So here it goes..

Carry You To Jesus - Steven Curtis Chapman

I will not pretend to feel the pain you're going through
I know I cannot comprehend the hurt you've known
And I used to think it mattered if I understood
But now I just don't know

Well, I'll admit sometimes I still wish I knew what to say
And I keep looking for a way to fix it all
But we know we're at the mercy of God's higher ways
And our ways are so small

But I will carry you to Jesus
He is everything you need
I will carry you to Jesus on my knees

It's such a privilege for me to give this gift to you
All I'd ever hope you'd give me in return
Is to know that you'll be there to do the same for me
When the tables turn

But I will carry you to Jesus
He is everything you need
I will carry you to Jesus on my knees

And if you need to cry go on and I, I will cry along with you, yeah
I'll give you what I have but still I know the best thing I can do
Is just pray for you

And I will carry you to Jesus
He is everything you need
I will carry you to Jesus on my knees

I'll carry you
I'll take you to Jesus on my knees

Asahan... Oooo...

Today is my bro's birthday (yea~!!). Even so, we travelled all the way back to my grandmother's house at Asahan. If you're wondering where that place is, it's somewhere near Jasin, but closer to Mount Ledang. Anyway, when we arrived, we were greeted by our uncles and aunties, cousins and cousees but above all, we were greeted by our grandmother who's still very healthy (even after having stroke). I really admire this woman, even at her age, she's still very much active and alert. She would smile widely as she sees her grandchildren playing basketball or chatting with one another. Whenever we balik kampung, my bro and I would play "culik" (it's a card game) with her and we would all laugh about. You know, after spending so much time with my grandma, I really wish she would live long enough to watch me get married. I really love her and I pray for good health for her. For the cousins, Asahan is the place where we could always come and throw away our worries and we could do anything and everything. We would always meet during the Chinese New Year season and we would spend like 2 or 3 days there. Sigh... but now, as the cousins all grow older, some even married, we don't spend as much time or have as much fun as we used to. I really miss to times. A memory that I will surely and definitely pass down to my children... Asahan; The Gathering.

Saturday, June 26, 2004

Yea~!! Holidays~!!!......... Sigh...

One week... One week... It's not enough man... 5 days without class is not sufficient enough for the mind and body of a uni student to rest. Why can't they give 2 weeks instead of 1? Why not a month for that matter? I miss those school days when I was in primary school... (*flashback) Holidays were atleast 1 month long, giving time for our frail and fragile entity to recuperate. We would run across the plains into the woods, swim in the crystal rivers, climb the tallest tree, share our thoughts and dreams with our buddies, catch those lil' tiny fishes in the longkang... Wait.. Did I say longkang? Ok... cancel that one off your imagination. You know, I got a deep cut in my leg once for doing that crap and it was one day before Family Camp in P.D. That sucked... Oh well... Back to reality, as each year goes by, the school holidays become shorter and shorter and somehow, when we look to the west, we envy those darn Americans who have their Summer Holidays which last almost half a year. It seems that Malaysians' kiasu level is almost reaching Singapore's. It's true I tell you. Scary isn't it? Take heed, students who attend more than 4 tuitions; there's more to this life than exams and scoring the highest mark a man could achieve so... GET A LIFE~!!

Friday, June 25, 2004

I don't know the time...

Really... I don't... Must be the night sickness again... While waiting for my bro to come back and for my pics to upload, let me write another blog. I wonder if songs influence your lives as much as it does to mine. You know, I can't really get my day going if there wasn't any song playing in my head. The songs keeps me active and pumping. Oh yea... most of the songs are Christian songs (Their positif rock tones just puzzles you doesn't it). As I'm typing this blog, I'm now listening to Youth Alive NSW - Anthem. It's the positif version of SOAD's Toxicity. Wahahaha~ Cool song dude~ Wish I could play it in my Youth (GY) one of these days. Somehow the music can really change the way you think, the way you feel at that current moment. When you PURPOSELY listen to Linkin Park or SOAD when you're feeling down and angry did you notice that it just fuels up your pathetic emotions? Ah... Yes... It DOES... Hahaha~ So that's why I'm shifting my music now to all positif tones dude. It helps alot... Really... You guys should try it. Find your favourite Christian song and watch it move your day (with the help of God ofcourse). Well... So much for tonight. God Bless people~!

More songs... Hehe

The uploading took longer time than expected... Sigh...
So here are more songs for you...
This awesome worship song is from UNITED. It's called

More Than Life

Stand by everything You said
Stand by the promises we made
Let go of everything I've done
I'll run into You open arms
And all I know

I love You more than life
I love You more than life

Fall back on everything You've done
Fall back on everlasting arms
When all the world is swept away
You are all the things I need
You're the air I breathe

And I love You more than life
I love You more than life

How can it be
You were the One on the Cross
Lifted for all our shame?
How can it be
The scars in Your hands are for me?
You are the King of all

And I love You more than life
I love You more than life

This 2nd song is from Jars of Clay, my fav acoustic band~ Hehe~

Love Song For The Savior

In open fields of wild flowers
She kiss the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for
The daisies and the roses
In no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all

He's more than laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
Fall into His arms and her tears will come down
And she'll pray

I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You

Sitting silent wearing Sunday's best
Sermon echoes through the wall
A great Salvation through it
Calls to the people
Who stares into no where
Can't feel the chains on their soul

He's more than laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close as a heartbeat or song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
Fall into His arms and the tears will fall down
And we'll pray

I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You

Seems to easy to call You Savior
Not close enough to call You God
So as I sit and think of
Words I can mention to show my devotion

I want to fall in love with You
I want to fall in love with You

Songs for the Soul

While waiting for my pics to be loaded up to Yahoo, I'm now listening to SCC. This song moved my heart (Believe it or not, it did). So check it out... it's an awesome song.

When Love Takes You In

I know you've heard the stories
But they all sound too good to be true
You've heard about a place called home
But there doesn't seem to be one for you
So one more night you cry yourself to sleep
And drift off to a distant dream

When love takes you in and everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
THe loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in

And somewhere while you're sleeping
Someone else is dreaming too
Counting down the days until
They hold you close and say I love you
And like the rain that falls into the sea
In a moment what has been is lost in what will be

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart

And this love will never let you go
There is nothing that could ever cause this love to lose its hold

When love takes you in everything changes
A miracle starts with the beat of a heart
When love takes you home and says you belong here
The loneliness ends and a new life begins
When love takes you in it takes you in for good
When love takes you in...

Thursday, June 24, 2004

Anger or Hate?

I dunno about you guys out there, personally, I like myself to be fun and smiling all the time and stuff but you know, these days I can't smile very often. I hate hating. I hate anger. The last time I let those things really get to me didn't end up so well for the other dude... Since then I told myself I won't let it take control of me again... What scares me now is I don't even know if I'm angry... All I know is the flame that keeps burning in me, wether I'm angry or happy, it's there. When something that really irritates me pops to my face there's this itching feeling like putting my fist right to its face... Sigh... I dunno how long I can keep fighting this thing. Unforgiveness has already destroyed part of my life that took me so long to build... As I'm trying to repair that part, hate and anger keeps getting in the way. Anger management won't help. THat's for sure. To make things worse, I'm the type of guy who's stubborn and would fight till the end for what I feel is right and when I see something that ticks me off, I won't show it off, instead, I will keep it in my heart and let the world pass me by. What the hell... Right...

Movies... Hmmm...

I dunno about you guys out there, but I've watched Riddick twice and the 2nd time really bore me out. I mean like... Ok... Riddick is a cool dude, nice action, awesome hairstyle (right...), and can do lots of stunts, but after awhile, you tend to go like; "Right... Matrix has much more action than this... I don't deserve sitting at D14 watching a movie like this dude... This is killin' me~!" Sigh... But the 1st time I watched it, it was quite nice (Maybe because my date was around. *Wink* Hehehe). As far as I know, the movie is set 4 or 5 years after the low-budget film Pitch Black. And the xbox game Chronicles of Riddick: Escape From Butcher's Bay is the prequel to Pitch Black. Watching the movie alone wasn't really satisfying. Me being a gammer, I can't wait for the dumb game to come on PC, play it, watch Pitch Black, and then watch Chronicles of Riddick again. Wahahaha. I make myself sound like I'm a very free person (I'm not~!). Actually I don't mind waiting as I'm gonna get a new PC with awesome specs as soon as I get streamyx connection (My taman can't get connected to it... Sigh...) which will come around... next month... or was it next year? Eitherway, after getting my wife, I've learned alot about forgiving, patience, and above all love(I meant agape love... not the No Appologies seminar love. Just wanted to clear that out. *Ehem). Woa.. I strayed so far from my title... Oh yea... Movies... Can be a pain in the @$$ sometimes but I guess we can't live without it too eh?? Now THAT's a sad reality. Thank God for the guitar~ Whew...

Tuesday, June 22, 2004

Malacca Club?

Sound like a pub or something... but, the club we're talking about is the one at Ratunda~ Yup~ The sports complex~ Today, my family had a great day of working out over there... Played badminton and table tennis till we sweat our butts off. No kidding, really... My bro, Aaron was all soaked up (he looked like he came out of the shower with clothes on) and when he sat down, you can see his sweat dripping from the chair... I shouted, "Mom~! Bro wet his pants again~!" Hahaha. It's funny to see how a club that we once looked down on was so fun. For me, I like to play sports till I'm all drained out... Once I'm drained, and I mean really drained, then only I'm satisfied... Gosh... I felt like I could pass-out anytime. That was how tired and drained I was, but it was all good. I like a good sweat-out. Hehe. The smell... the aroma... awesome... Wahahaha. Gosh, that was sick dude... Speaking of sick, while we were having dinner at the club's open-air restaurant, there were 2 cats mating. I mean, we were eating and there you have this male cat humping around. What a sight man... Tons of jokes came out and we kept laughing away~ Sigh... Life's short. Play more. xbox. Hahaha~

Saturday, June 19, 2004


Yeap.. You heard right. It's Full Metal Panic? Fumoffu dude~! Just when I thought it was gonna be a boring 1 week semester break, my bro got the whole set of FMPf for us to watch and review it~! We've already watched 1 cd which has 8 episodes in it and I tell you, it was awesome. It's been awhile since I've ever laugh so loud watching an anime. The 1 hour it took us to download a DivX player was worth the waiting. Oh.. In case you're wondering, FMPf is a hilarious love story-comedy. It's mainly about the life of two 16 year old. A guy named Sagara who was brought up in a war torn country and has a whole dictionary about warfare in his mind, and Chidori who's a student council president who's gradually falling for him. Lots of interesting twist and cool jokes. I really recommend it to everyone who need lots of laughter.

Also, today, at mp, I was checking out the intel pc fair. So there they were trying to promote their stuff and... stuff and there was a competition. The prize; an intel t-shirt, the game; Need For Speed : Underground. I nailed that game without breaking a sweat and honorably pick up my prize. It was awesome man. The guys at the fair was trying to break my record but... Wahahaha. Their time wasn't even near mine.

What a fun day. Spent time with people whom I dearly miss and got to mess around with people whom I hardly know. Sigh... And now to end the day; Fumomomomomo Fumoffu~!!

Friday, June 18, 2004


I know I have a bad attitude towards many a things, but is it my fault?? I mean like, how would we know if our priority is "correct". No one can tell you which is more important as they would only tell you which is more important to THEM, not YOU. I struggle with this all the time, and honestly, I'm getting real tired of it. I'm so tired of choosing between my personal gain and others. I feel like I'm stretching myself so thin though I keep telling people how free I am. I want to spend time with people I seldom see; people who mean something to me, people who I miss and think about each day and each day is killing me. Night time is the only REAL time I have for myself. The songs help but, it's still not enough. I feel as if I'm struggling with something but I dunno what is it~! Sigh.. life..

Thursday, June 17, 2004


I can't believe I'm actually gonna make a blog.. I mean like.. Come on man.. I'm like so busy everyday and stuff and here I am; trying to make a blog.. But I guess it feels good writing down whateva crap I feel like without fear that anyone would wanna read this.. Hahaha.. I feel sooo much better.. I'm not really fond of doing this kinda things actually.. I guess must be getting old or something.. Life has put too much on my shoulders.. Right...

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