Saturday, July 31, 2004

The Race

My heart is beating as fast as my feet are running. With the finishing line ever so near, there's little room for mistakes and failures. Stricken with doubts and trials I run this race of mine. On the long, twisting and narrow road I carefully tread my steps. Though steep and precipitous this road can diverge into many other roads and there's only one "right" path.

Though I myself had made a couple of wrong turns and fell, I willingly lay down my pride and set myself back on the narrow and difficult road. With the evil one at my tail, trying to distract me from reaching my goal, I set my eyes in front; not behind. Though I know this is race, I feel that somehow, I should just stop and admire the scenery and all the beautiful creations that He had created. The sight of it keeps me in awe and I'm reminded once again, the reason I'm made; to praise.

And with each praise I sing, and each worship I give, He in return gives me His strength for I know I can't rely on my own strength. The long trecherous road behind thought me well about strength. *chuckles*. Far too many times I have fallen and wasted the precious time I had. Thankfully, The Helper, is always there whenever I seek help or guidance. If it wasn't for Him, I would be lost. Completely.

I'm not alone in this race. As I run each day, I could see others running side by side with me. I could even see some stopping just to pick up those who had fallen. Such a sight encourages me to run on. Even as I'm running, I could see a few runners, slowly going astray. It awfully saddens my heart. I've tried to shouting to them, hoping they could hear my voice but to no avail. All I could do is just pray for them.

The tedious road is killing my feet but I know I must go on. Thankfully, He has shown me that there's more to this life and even more on the next. The adrenalin and euphoria of reaching the finish line keeps pushing me on. So here I am, running towards the end on this path, in this race.

Friday, July 30, 2004

Die you biomodified being~!!! - The Templars

Every Friday, 9pm; J - A - K - E - 2.0! Only on tv3! An ordinary guy with an extraordinary upgrade. He unintended had nanites swarming in his body, enhancing every part, every organ... I dunno about the "other" part and I don't wanna find out. Quite an interesting show with a nice plot. Well, I guess all the new series these days have professional scriptwriters behind them. I ain't complaining, as long as the show isn't lame and the story makes sense. *i hope ff7:advent children will be just as good... hehe*. Anyway, human upgrades; are they possible? What am I talking about?! They already exist for crying out loud. Quite scary to think of it, especially those who played Deus Ex and Deus Ex: Invisible War. JC Denton, a biomodified agent of UNATCO who, in the end merged with the AI construct known as Helios. Sounds cool eh? Gosh I wish they would make a sequel for that game. They brilliantly integrated RPG with first-person-shooter style of action. Real cool -_-" *think, I, robot*, will the world be overrun by robots? Will humanity be simultaneously link in mind and govern by an AI construct *think Helios*? Scary indeed. Thankfully, I'm going to heaven when I die. Wahahahaha!! So I won't have to worry about an AI assault on humanity. End words; Don't play God! You ain't up to the task I tell ya!

ps: i killed the dentons and everyone at the end of the game, ergo the omars took over the world and made everyone into an omar! *gasp!* what have i done?!

With great power/bio-modification/nanites/etc. comes great responsibility - Ben Parker

Rocking Praise

It fun to hear praise song that has almost the same dynamics as other heavy metal tunes. Awesome I tell ya! Youth Alive NSW's Anthem from Elevate has a very nice crunch tune. Wish I could play it on stage one day~ Anyway, when I 1st heard Anthem it reminded me of SOAD's style of music; without those blasphemy, profanity, and sacrilege. Yup~ It feels good to know that I can listen to those type of praise tunes. Which makes me wonder; is Switchfoot a Christian band or what? Hmm.. It appeared several times on WOW albums. I must investigate!

Anyway, I was up all night in my bro's room trying to fix this dumb blog template. But finally, peace is ensured.. Whew..

p.s. my bro's getting more stingy with his com. *sigh*

Thursday, July 29, 2004

Waking up on the wrong side of my bed..

ARRGHH!! I just hate having flu from the moment I wake up. *ack* Especially the mucus that flows like a river. Dang! All this flu makes me feel like singing;

Mucus are flowing from my head,
But that doesn't mean my nose
Would soon be turning red,
Sneezing's not for me, no,
Cause I will never stop the flu by complaining...
Bla bla bla bla...

Gosh... To make matters worse, I'm writing this in my lab and everyone's looking at me... *sigh*

*ACK!!!* It's ALIVE!! It's ALIVE!!!!

The best bet is the dumbest of them all...

It was a fine Wednesday, the sky were blue and the clouds were black.. Hmm.. Makes sense. Anyway, it's been awhile since I took SP out, so today, I decided to spend some time with her. So after cleaning the house (yup! you heard me right... i clean), grab my keys, opened the gates, start the bike,  revved up, and flew to her house. Actually, I thought I was gonna reach her school late as she said her class finishes at 3.10pm but I couldn't remember if my watch was 10 minutes faster or slower. So, in the desperation, I pitiably made lots of wrong turns (thinking they were short cuts), realizing my lapse, I abruptly made couple of tight cornering. Loads of "Near Miss" points I tell ya! *think NFS: Underground*

Later that evening, we watched the singaporean show; The Best Bet. Quite an interesting show with loads of moral lessons in it (believe it...) The show is mainly about, as the title suggests, 4D and how it screwed up the lifes of the casts and when they grew out of it, they motivate themselves to be successful. Ooo... Interesting show, coming from Singapore.

It made me realize again why God doesn't permit gambling. From gambling comes greed, and from greed comes a host of other negative elements that would lead to the fall of our Christian walk. It's kinda long to type so go read it up from your Bibles kay? In short, gambling, vices, etc = Recipe for Disaster!

Tuesday, July 27, 2004


*ack* I've been thinking, why am I getting all this pain on my back? I'm still young *right...* and I don't wanna die...


I can't back that up. I don't mind dying actually. After all, I am going to heaven. Hehehe. But with all seriousness, I spent the whole day cracking my head in front of the com (which I normally do everyday) but today, I'm having a crappy back-ache. Sigh... Bloody corrupted programmes. I wish I had broadband. *grrr*

But today, my dad told me something very interesting, my bro wants to give me his com *shocked!* Wha?! Could this be true? According the to oracle, bro wants to get a notebook instead. Hmm.. Interesting twist in the mysterious plot here... I shall investigate further...

A Fire That Burns So Deep, It Burns So Bright...

Just one of those nights when I keep telling myself that I have to sleep early.. Though they never seem to work, I get the feeling I'll succeed tonight. Hehe. Feeling partially tired and bleary, I'm now listening to Planet Shaker's - Burn... Made me wonder, what ever happened to the flame that burnt so bright 5 years ago? What happened to the passion that roars so loudly 3 years ago. It seems every year, as life passes me by, that fire becomes like a candle it the wind... Yea... That's the correct way to put it. Wishing I could just turn back time and undo those things that I regretfully did; mistakes and errors that shouldn't have happened, people whom I've failed to set an example to, people I have failed through my journey, the journey that inexorably leads me to where I am now - here.

Wishing, as I found out since I was 10 years old, is one of the dumbest things that ever existed. It gives false hope and meaningless motivations to people such as myself. Heh. But, as I found out, living as a Christian, there's always hope.. Always.. I like that word. You could associate it with eternity as it holds the same meaning. Hehe.

Ahhh... Now I remember why I'm still fighting on against this world. Why I'm fighting against everything that the world has got to offer; I fight for eternity. Eternity with God. Eternity may sound like a long time, infact, it IS a long time. But with God. Who can resist that eh? What a hope we have in Christ...

Speaking of hope, another element that has kept me going on. Hope. Unlike wishing, hope gives me more ground. I know, though I may sin and fall, though I may go astray, there's always Hope out there searching for me, calling out to me to come back to Him.

I thank You Lord Jesus. May I once again shine that fire that burns so deep, it burns so bright for you... Once again... Amen...

Monday, July 26, 2004

It's the X that DRIVES us...

I've been fretting about this the whole month and now, it's really itching me (or maybe I should blame those mozzies that's sucking my blood down there... DIE!!!) Anyway, my dad said he'll give me a hand in selling the X so that I could, hopefully, buy the new X that I've always wanted. Ooooo... I can just feel it's body, coming closer to me... Muahahahaa... Muahahahaha...

Getting too restless, need.. too.. sell... bloody X... *exhales* 
Oooo... Gibson 

Gluttony IS A Sin... but...

Who can resist eating Indian rice for lunch and some of Pantai Kundur's rolling chicken and John's bread action? *wahh* beh tahan! Ok.. I admit it. I indulged myself in gluttony. I'm not proud of it okay? But while it lasted... It was good!! Wahahaha.

Ok, at first, I didn't really felt like eating Indian rice but since my dad gave one of those 'I wanna eat' look, I gave in. Sat on a chair; banana leaf placed on table, vegies served;

"I want mutton with fish curry"

Curry came, and I passed out... Really!  I can't recall what happened but when I woke up,  my belly was bloated with crap... *gasp!* Great scott!! Another alien experiments!! Without wasting any precious time, I immediately seek professional help from my consultant/psychiatric; SP. After doing an emergency check-up, the diagnosis was given;

"ND, it's hard for me to say this but... you have an alien creature living in your stomach.. I'm sorry," 

*gasp!!*  "NOOooooooooo....!!!"

"Don't worry, there IS a cure.. listen carefully..." She then whispered some confidential information into my ears... Without hesitant, I followed her advice.

Later, I went to Melacca Club with my family unknown of my 'condition' and drained every ounce of energy I had in my body. Like what SP instructed me to do, I ate what the Malaysians call; John's Bread and Rolling Chicken. When I reached home, I was already ready to complete the final process of getting rid of the creature;

Grab the news paper... Took my towel... Undressed myself *nothing explicit was seen*... Sat on the greatest invention known to men aka The Royal Throne... 3... 2... 1... BLAST OFF!!! *SPALTKAPLEUAKKAKAKAKIKIKI!!!!*
*whew* Mission Complete

Waaaaa... Why like that one.....???

Almost woke up late today if it wasn't for my lovely mom you threw water on my face.. It seems I accidently set my alarm for 8am again. This is the 2nd I've set my alarm wrong.. Sigh.. Must be real tired yesterday, after all, I DID slept for more than 5 hours which is something really very rare coming from me. Gosh... I hate it when I get the feeling that I could use the time I have now for something more important.. My dad lar! All his fault... *sulks* Right...

Oh well.. Life's life right? Gotta get use to it or get over it.

I've been thinking for quite some time; why am I working? More precisely, what am I working for? Honestly, my cause seems to be lost for a moment there. As far as could remember, I'm working for the X I'm itching to buy since I came out of NS, the upgraded com I'm interested in having since I read the reviews for Half-Life 2 and DOOM 3, and lastly, a new handphone I've thought of getting since the hp I'm currently using isn't mine but Phoebe's (thanx gal!) and the phone's already beaten up and the screen is cracked. All my friends keep pestering me to buy a new cover but... dunno.. just don't feel like buying that cover... Hehe.

Hmm.. What am I to do? Just earlier today, my father somehow persuaded me to work for him on Sundays, Mondays, Wednesdays and Saturdays. Initially, I wanted to stop working on Saturdays because I feel that I could spend more time with SP on that day rather than on Wednesday. I'm having a bad feeling about working on that day... *sighs* What am I to do... To make things more hot, my finals for the 1st sem is coming... It's finally here... *gasp!* Pray for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

I know this is kinda irritating but...

MORE FF7 PICS!! Cloud, Aerith and Sephiroth !!


Smokers... despicable butt-heads!

This blog today will only target people who go around filling their lungs with Carbon Dioxide, tar, and rat poison. Honestly, if I would be really offensive when I confront smokers. What saddens me is to find IGNORANT "Christian" smokers!! (note the "") You guys are supposed to be role models for crying out loud, and there you go committing slow suicide. Pathetic, pitiable, feeble, wretched, and dismal. You name it, I've got the word for it. Heck larr~ Where's the self-control you're trained for? Where's the commandments we're to follow? Sure nobody's perfect. Even I sin every now and then, but it's like, SOOOO clear about what smoking does to your lungs and your body. Giving excuses like, "Oh.. It keeps my mind awake and it clears away my mental block", is a LAME excuse! Get a life dude!

I guess is because I grew up with people smoking all around me. All of my friends smoke - except me. Never and I really mean never. So when people smoke or when there's smoke in the air, I catch it, real quick. And when I DO catch it, it sickens me. Though I don't show it, rest asure, I get irritated by it. Feel like shuffing the cigarette down the dude's throat - real deep. Cause as far as I know, I'm the one getting the maximum damage, not the smoker who has the filter at the end of the damn cigarette.

Smoking; the dumbest thing humans ever create. *sigh*

Sunday, July 25, 2004

FF7 FrENzY!!

I can't explain just how great of  a game Final Fantasy 7 is!! I'm a sucker for that game I tell ya. That old game really changed my perception of rpg games. The story is just too darn cool!! If there was a novel for it, I would get it right away. I've played it more than 3 times in my life and each time was more than 40-50 hours of gameplay for an average gamer. The twisting complex story really knows how to catch your attention. Hehe. Cloud and Aerith... *sigh* She didn't have to die... Sephiroth's a jerk! 

The Wager Of Sin Is DEATH

But luckily, my God is One merciful Dude... So the price I paid for not going to church early this morning; flu... Crap mann.. Don't you just hate it when that mucus starts to get watery? And the way it flows so smoothly out of your nose, causing that irritating itch? Hmm.. Perhaps I shouldn't be too graphic eh? Sorry dudes. Hehe.

*ack!* It's flowing!! It's alive!! Runn!!!!

Can't think of much to write now. The mucus clog up my brains. Dang~! Though my nose is in its out-of-order mode, I can still smell the smoke coming from behind my house. I'm very sensitive to it... Hmm...


I confess... *sobs* I missed church today... *sobs* NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!
Anywayz... I'm going to visit my grandma now. Yup.. My parents are calling me to get off the com so see ya dudes....





When the moon shines...

It's quite a sight, the moon. Those who know me would probably think I'm nutz if I ever say anything sentimental.. Truth be told, I'm actually a very sentimental dude (come my room and you'll understand). Last night (beat the clock) Phoebe invited me for a barbeque. Naturally, if there's any event with room for disaster, I'll be there. Hehe. So I woke up around 8am on a super tiring Saturday morning and dragged my feet (and my bike) to work. I dunno why but I felt so tired that morning. Even now, I feel soooo tired. Somehow I keep straining myself. It ain't healthy bla, bla, bla. I know, OK! I'm trying to change that. Note the 'trying'. Anyway, so I watched the clock as the time passed by quickly and before I knew it, I'm off work. Hehe. I actually planned to go early, then probably play pool or bowling with SP but then she sms'ed me and told me she was in Kotamas.

"Wait.. Did I just heard Kotamas?? What on earth is she doing there?"

After much send and recieve, she said that she had already told me that she was going there... To straighten her hair *gasp!*. I totally forgotten about it!! I tried imagining pictures of her with straight hair and it seems... weird... Really. I thought looked nice in her normal wavy hairstyle but since she's getting that hair-straightenning thing for a cheap price, she decided to go for a try... If I were her, I would quote Yoda; "Do, or do not. There is no try".
So says the great master Yoda who died eventually and became nothing more than a bookmark of a novel in the dumpster. Muahahahaha!! I'm EVIL!!! Muahahahahahaa!!!

After quite a long wait in MP, she finally sms'ed me telling me that she's on her way home. So I took off in the speed of light, eager to find out the outcome of the twisted experiments done on her hair. I reached her house earlier than her so... I waited larr~ *sheesh*. Suddenly, I heard the gates open up and there stood a perky girl with a cheerful smile. The anticipation really built me up.

"You look gorgeous!!! More than that, you look beautiful, stunning, elegant, attractive, striking, lovely, magnificent, and dazzling!!"... Okok. I didn't said that outloud but believe me, that was the words in my heart. I didn't want her to know because I'm afraid she would expand and eventually, explode. Plus, she doesn't like guys with sweet mouths. But seriously, she really surprised me. Sadly, she wasn't satisfied with the straight hair. So naturally, I wouldn't encourage her or discourage her regarding her looks and appearance. I would just simply put everything as lay-men-term as I can. I don't wanna control her.

Oh well, the barbeque wasn't really anything spectacular larr.. Just normal only. I still feel that the barbeque with my cuz, Soh Wan, Stephanie, Wan June, Lee Wen, Chua and the rest was much more cool. Hehe. Too bad not everyone can be as sampat as those gals. *sigh* I really miss Soh Wan. Wahahaha. She's my "god-sis".
Well... It's getting late and I'm kinda tired..

For Evil Medical School Graduates

Don't you wish you could be the famous/infamous Dr Evil? Yea yea yea. Go ahead. Go flash around that PhD in Evil Doctorate. Still, ever wondered what would you do with that awesome PhD? Ooo... Why not go after that "World's Sexiest Spy" Austin (Danger) Powers? Or even (if you try your luck) go after Agent 007, James Bond? If you think you're not up to the task, why not just do the usual aspire-for-world-domination thinge? You know, build a nuclear bomb and place it on the moon. Or why not something sinister, like cut the world's supply of loopy meals and demand a hefty ransom?? *1 million dollars!! muaahahahahaha!!* Ahh yes.. That should do the trick. There will be a lot of mind-numbing work to do in order for you to succeed; put up with incompetent and inept fools-for-commandos, covering up your eeevvil plan with decoys, building traps for spies who decides to pay a visit.
With such mind-boggling IQ scores, it wouldn't be a problem for you to deal with those eh?? After all, you are an... 
Evil Genius

note-to-self: get one of those rotating chairs from Dr Evil's secret lair.

Saturday, July 24, 2004

The Great (right...) 88!!!

The Super 88; Unbeatable! Unchallengeable! Unassailable! Undestroyable (no such word)! Unknown...
Before heading home from SP's house earlier today (actually it was around 8pm), just as I was gonna say good-bye, 2 morons suddenly appeared in what seem to be a badly beaten up junkpile with wheels.

"It's my porche'. Becareful not to scratch it ya?"

Had 2 choices; either I roll on the road laughing my buts out or I could just say "What da heck is that?!"
Guess which I chose?

Yup, it's been a while since I really got to chat with Aaron Wee and Raj. I know where Aaron is studying but I had no clue where Raj was. It seems he is currently studying at Ranger's College doing Law *gasp!* Raj?! Law?! It's like saying to Bush and Saddam, "Hey! You two DO look alike!" and later get sued for it. But seriously... Raj... Law... Raj... Law... Something's wrong. Real wrong. But who am I to judge eh? *ehem*

He actually made my day with that statement. Had loads of fun shooting him with Aaron. And with that, emotions run and we reminisce about the wild and crazy things we did back in MHS. Raj was grudging about the new rules of high school, if you finish class earlier say 12.40pm, you can't go home till 2pm. The guards won't open the gates. Aaron's theory was that because of how we would come to school in the morning, take our attendance and whisk through the front gate before 9am (hope i didnt say that out loud.. hehe) *ahem* It seems I'm having a slight cough eh?

Oh well.. that's the past.. Now, I look to turn over a new leaf.. And I mean a really fresh one. I shamefully admit, I did A LOT of stupid things in my Form 4 and 5. Things that I really regret. But... Luckily for me as a Christian, I have.... The Awesome Blood Of Christ (ABOC) to wash away those dirty stains that leaves your life filled with guilt. With only a prayer away, you could get your own personal ABOC!! Get yours today! - or regret for eternity

What a day.. I feel so refreshed and awesome.. It's amazing what songs can do to you.. Good nite peps. God Bless! Agape~

note: Super 88 is my old kap chai that could out-run your standard 4-stroke bikes. It could run from 0 to 80kmh in less than 10 secs. The best part is that it's strong enough to survive 15 accidents. hehe.

Weee!!! The clock just went KABLAM!! 12am!!

Ahh yes.. For once it's 12am and I'm starting to feel the drag. Very unusual for me if you know me well enough. Normal would be me saying "I'm starting to feel the drag" when it's 2am or 3am. But my, my, my. It's sure early for me to say such things. Once again, I'm surfing the net, trying to look for any cool sites or.. Actually, anything cool at all. Mp3s running the songs over and over again. It doesn't feel boring though. You know, for once I wished I followed SP's advice. I should've work on Wednesdays instead of Saturdays. If not I would be with her now, playing pool in Senyum and cracking jokes around. Luckily, I'm getting off work at 5pm tomorrow (or actually today.. watch the clock) and I'm gonna head straight to Century Mahkota. Yup! You heard me right. It seems Phoebe's friend is throwing a birthday party there (quick! everyone go "Ooooooo..."). Bah! Rich people! Why not use your money for something more beneficial?! (like buying me a new car... *sobs) I guess I have to be contented with what God has given me. In fact, I'm very grateful He didn't put me in some rich family. If not, I wouldn't face all those trials and tribulations that has broken and pressed me to the man I am today (requires God's Super Glue - available for free through prayer! get your forgiveness now!).

It's already 12.25am. Strange how multitasking could take so much of your time huh? I wonder how's SP now. Last I heard she met someone she didn't want to meet at the pool lounge. Hope she's doing fine. If it's up to me, I would be there with her now, playing by her side and then later we would head back to Century and have some fun at the swimming pool or the gym or even the restaurant. Too bad.. Bad choices have it's toll. And I've just payed RM20 for it...    Just kidding.

Ahh... It's already 12.40am. Wow! I think it's the first time I've ever spend so much time on ONE blog! Cool! This deserves a celebration! Cheap table wine for everybody!! Enjoy!!

Friday, July 23, 2004

Is There Ever Enough Of Prayer?

I don't think so. For me, prayer is like, super important man. I don't think there's such a thing as "praying too much". If possible, I would wanna live that kinda lifestyle. Really.. I don't find it "Super Holy" or too self-righteous. After all, no one would know you're praying (unless you pray super-out-loud larr). I feel that God would actually appreciate the company.Hehe. It's like talking to your Best Friend; you'll never get bored. The plus point of it is that you get closer to your Creator. Cool huh?!
End words; keep praying dude!!

F.E.A.R. - First Encounter Assault and Recon

Date: Unknown
Entry No: **

~Dear Diary~
I don't exist. No one knows who or what I am. Truth be told, I'm just human. Nothing more. Of all the jobs that requires military training, I had to choose this. The man in the suit told me to think of it as a career opportunity. No one told what was my REAL job. They just put it in one sentence to describe it to me; you are a member of a top secret military unit whose job is to deal with the paranormal and supernatural. Paranormal? Supernatural? What the heck does that mean? I'm a soldier, not a dictionary. Anyway, I just got my first call. It seems the Military Installation 24 over Seattle has been attacked, and all contact with those inside has been lost. Weird huh? That installation was supposedly to be one of the most heavily guarded..
I have no idea what I'm gonna face inside that building. Honestly, I dunno why I suddenly feel so... cold... I have a bad feeling about this... You know I'm not used to saying this but... I feel... 

Magnificent Obsession (sounds familiar huh?)

Sitting on my chair
I look out the window
The smell of rain fills the air
And it's all so mellow
Listening to mp3s
With Toby Mac filling the sound
And he caught me singing
Love Is In The House
Going na na na na
Luckily no one's around
If not I'll go duh
Covering up the round
Waiting for the rain to stop quickly
And oh it seems so long
But it gives me time to admire its beauty
That I may pen it down in a song
A song for God not men
For it is He who gave me this gift
So I'll do my best with all I can
In faith, make others believe - wontdieone

~steven curtis chapman~

All Day~!

Yea I know it ain't a new song there's everyone has already hear it but don't you just love the bass intro? Especially in the UNITED's album. No matter how many times you hear that song, you would just feel like picking the X up and start making some noise. Hehe. Well... Maybe that's all depending on the person but that's just me. UNITED... They really know how to rock things up. Lots of difference from the Youth Alive NSW album. More riffs and much more crunchy tone. Hmmm... Except that Youth Alive NSW has a nice turntable at the back there.. This is just one of those Christian music that I'm really very proud of. I realize that Christian musicians have more talent than those circular musicians. The reason? We are powered by God! Wahahaha. Every note we pick, every melody we stroke, every string we strum, every guitar we bash up; all filtered by God's presence and annointed by Him. So to all Christian musicians out there, ROCK ON!!

1! 2! 3! 4! All day! All day now!
And anyone around can see,
Just how good you've been to me,
For all my friends who don't know you,
I pray that you would save them too.

Final Fantasy 7: Advent Children

Alone.. After 2 years since the final battle, I'm all alone.. Saving the planet was useless.. Yea.. Peace ensured but still, pointless. Midgar is in ruins and everyone is gone. It's all my fault.. Was it worth it? Was it the right thing to do? Was killing Sephiroth the way to end it all? I don't know.. I really don't.. Am I going insane? I can't be with them anymore.. Barrett... Tifa... Vincent... Nanaki... All I will cause is just more hurt. I can't let them suffer because of me. I have already lost Aerith.. I will not let them die because of me! The meteor was stopped, Sephiroth; destroyed.  I've stopped the Jenova Reunion but, there's something still out there. What is it?

In the end, the childrens are the one who suffer.. Once again, my with sword in hand...

Final Fantasy 7: Advent Children

When the nights never end...

Looking at the clock on the wall, 12.21am. It's a new day but somehow nothing has change.................
Nope... nothing YET. True fact is that I'm waiting, patiently to see what God has installed for me. I realize as I mature in God that life just keeps getting tougher and tougher. Every day, every hour, every minute, even every second, life is unpredictable. Somehow I wish God would just "show" me everything you know. All His plans and purposes. At least with that I wouldn't have to worry about my future but.. What's the point of living then huh? Sitting in front of my com, listening to Christian praise and worship and the current song is Planet Shakers - Unto You.
My bro came out to have a peek at what I'm writing and exclaimed "How many times you write your blog today??". "As many times as I like larr.. Hehe" I looked back at him puzzled.
Anyway, as a teen who has such high hopes for his youth, I look back when I was 12 years old, and I was invited into my 1st Youth Fellowship meeting. I was greeted by Allan, Sharlene and a host of older youths. Gosh.. You may think I'm exaggerating but the feeling then was like.. WOW... but now, 6 years later... I feel the fire... But it's cold... Yea I feel energize and excited everytime there's GY on Sunday but on the weekdays, I feel so.. dead should be the word. I know I shouldn't feel this way but I can't help feeling the difference. I have a vision... More like a dream to fulfill. What that dream is, is only for me to know. I still remember till now, 3 pastors have confirm it for me. When I heard their words, I knew nothing would stop God's plan.. God's promise.
So here I am... Once again.. Back to point A. Waiting slowly for God to unfold his mysteries to me. Waiting patiently for God to reveal all His wonders that never seem to end. I just wish I was wise enough to understand, why He does what He do. Maybe I do and just don't see it. I dunno. Not now for that matter. But the one thing I'm most bewildered by, is how God could be so patient with us sinful-lower-trash-pile-of-crap-beings and could forgive us over and over again... If I was God (and I'm glad I'm not) I would've smitten myself. Everytime I sin, everytime I ask for forgiveness, He would always never fail to cover me once again with the blood of His Son, the blood of Jesus. With that, I feel so blessed. I would never trade being a Christian, having God living in me for any other religion. I can say this because I myself have studied several other religions of the world and not one of them is as secure as what God has to give.

Heaven is only a mile away in my walk with God. The best part is that He is walking with me through it all. Regardless of the state of my heart, He is Heaven in the real world. Thank You Lord. Glory is Yours!

Thursday, July 22, 2004

Are You The First To Fight?? Punk?!

"Code Red! Code Red! We've 12 marines stuck between drop zones gamma and lambda! Requesting immediate back-up over!"

The deafening sirens woke you up from your slumber. Though still lacking of sleep, you have a duty; a commitment to fulfill to your country. You quickly arm yourself with your trusty M16A2 Colt 5.56mm AR; the best the business has to offer. "Lock and Load!" you shouted, readying your teammates for combat. Rifle in hand, and grenades at its place, all is set. The sound of the chopper's blade cutting the hair; peace. The sound of marines screaming order; war. The sound of an M16 letting go a full round; symphony.
When everyone else can't be contacted in time, you are the...

First To Fight

Thursday Part-2

I’m a simple guy (or maybe that’s how I feel). When it comes do deciding what looks good on me or what are the fashions suitable for me, what to wear, or even what to eat, I totally suck. No kidding. I mean like, today, after cleaning up the house, I went out to have lunch with my father, uncle and aunt at the Orchard Street Food Court. I couldn’t choose what I want. I do know what I don’t want but I certainly can’t choose what I wanna eat. End up eating what my dad ordered for himself; “Law Mee”. Not bad..
Continued to follow my dad to do some personal errands (actually I just needed to open a savings account for my pay-check.. read the previous blog). Then my dad offered to change my specs since it was giving me some trouble. It seems I have some kinda problem that people wearing specs have. The guy told me something like this;
Dude: Your power hasn’t change. It’s just that your eyes now have ______ (fill in a bombastic word)
Me: Really? What do you mean by ______?
Dude: Oh, it means that your vision is blur due to the double vision that you see.
Me: Ooooooooo…. (*amazed)
Dude: Ya.. Your current specs don’t have the layer that erases the double vision.
Me: Ooooooooo….
Dude: So you can choose a frame that you like, your dad will be coming right?
Me: Ya.. My dad coming.. Choose ar?? I dunno le… I dunno what looks good on me.
Dude: You try this lorr.. (*takes out a few pair of specs)
Then the tedious work of choosing the frame comes on. I just couldn’t choose what looks good on me. Call me cheapskate, the criteria in my mind was cheap and doesn’t look stupid. So I picked up a half-frame spec. I dunno why but the dude keep pushing that weird looking half-frame at me by saying things like, “This one ar, looks good on you. You should get loose the studious look and get the popular designs of today”. Sigh.. Hope it doesn’t look weird.. I shall get my feedback when I go to church this Sunday and hopefully, a good one. Hhmm.. Come to think of it, it was ok larr but then the thought me, Andrew Liu, being indecisive blew me. Makes me feel like singing the “Kopi Tiam” song from the band Indecisive;

Empty Decorations
I wake in the dark,
With showers of light,
Moments of emptiness surrounds,
Floating away,
Auras of hope,
Reality brings me…
To the ground,
What can I do what can I say,
I need a place to hide away,
Just for a while, just for a smile
Just for the life I used to know...

And every song,
Was filled with words of love and not of anger,
Where did they go,
Why did they leave me far behind?

Cause I don't wanna be alone (Oh oh)
Living life all on my own (Oh oh)
I don't wanna live my life in isolation
Filled with empty decorations
Cause I want to be with people that I know
Who would do the things I do (Oh oh)
Making all my dreams come true (Oh oh)
I don't recognize the shadows on my door
Though I've seen them all before
Because the only thing I really want
Is to be with YOU...
Lalalala… Peace out!

Thursday Part-1

I woke up late today... I actually planned to wake up around 9am instead I got up at 10.30am. Luckily, I manage to finish up all I was set to do in time. Sweep and mop the house. Hehe. Never had enough of chores eh? I was in a good mood as I swept the house but just as I was going to find the mop, I realize the last joker who was supposed to "clean" the house didn't do a good job. I didn't complained when there was alot of dust on the floor (the last time someone cleaned the house was actually 2 days ago). As far as my experience is concern, the dust won't gather so fast. Really... But it was ok. What really cheezed me off was the incomplete job of mopping. The dirty water was left in the pail and the mop wasn't clean. Had to do double-job as my mom would put it. But... Hehehe. It was all good. I manage to get a sweet revenge. How?? More after I get back from opening a bank account to cash in my pay-check. Later dudes~

Wednesday, July 21, 2004

We are DOOMed the 3rd time...

And you thought you've seen the last of those dreaded half-zombies and demons... And you thought you've blasted, gunned-down, blown apart everything that moves in your sight... From nazis to monsters to demons who crossed paths with the wrong space marine. A dude who's equiped from head to toe with the finest equipment from the Union Aerospace Corporation.
A one man arsenal.. A monster..
Once again you're stuck on an unknown moon orbiting an unknown planet infested with drooling bloody demons from hell that's begging you to just aim between their eyes and pull the trigger..
Once again you're flanked and cornered with your enemies everywhere... One word crosses through your mind.. 

Watch the hair...

I dunno why but today, on my way to uni I looked at the rear mirror and (*gasp!) realize I didn't comb my hair! And it had this weird semi-afro look.. In short, it was horrible. I felt like winding down my window and sticking my head out (since it was raining) so that my hair wouldn't stand like that. I have the type of hair thats really stubborn (just like the dude that's having it). No matter how much I comb it, it wouldn't stay at the place I want it to stay! My hair now is in the "too-short-for-combing-too-long-for-spiking" season making it so difficult for me to look good. I'm actually trying to decide which hairstyle I wanna keep. Some people said that my old hairstyle (see the pic on the sidebar) looks better than the spiked version of me but I prefer the long hair. It's easier to keep and manage. It's hard to keep the spiked hair when you're riding the bike to uni. I guess I'll only keep the spiked hair IF (and that's a big IF) I get a car. I'm so poor (*sighs).
Now as I type my blog I feel so light-head (more like air-head). Can't tell if it's the hair or the rain that got the best of me (the price you pay for riding a bike). So much for that eh?
car... car... car... car... car... car... car... car... car... car... car... car... car... car... car... car...

Romance Mathematics

Modern Maths, Additional Maths, Applied Maths, Engineering Maths... Who needs them?! Here's something that EVERYONE can use. Check it out;

Romance Mathematics
Smart man + smart woman = romance
Smart man + dumb woman = affair
Dumb man + smart woman = marriage
Dumb man + dumb woman = pregnancy

Office Arithmetic
Smart boss + smart employee = profit
Smart boss + dumb employee = production
Dumb boss + smart employee = promotion
Dumb boss + dumb employee = overtime

Shopping Maths
A man will pay $2 for a $1 item he needs.
A woman will pay $1 for a $2 item that she doesn't need.

General Equation and Statistics
A woman worries about the future until she gets a husband.
A man never worries about the future until he gets a wife.
A successful man is one who makes more money than his wife can spend.
A successful woman is one who can find such a man.

To be happy with a man, you must understand him a lot and love him a little.
To be happy with a woman, you must love her a lot and not try to understand her at all.

Married men live longer than single men do, but married men are a lot more willing to die.

Propensity To Change
A woman marries a man expecting he will change, but he doesn't.
A man marries a woman expecting that she won't change, and she does.

Discussion Formula
A woman has the last word in any argument.
Anything a man says after that is the beginning of a new argument.

Law Of Un-married
Old aunts used to come up to me at weddings, poking me in the ribs and cackling, telling me, "You're next." They stopped after I started doing the same thing to them at funerals.

Tuesday, July 20, 2004

It's a Battlefield out there!

War; we try to avoid it but when it comes, it comes on hard.. It's been so long since we fought the invading Japs, the mighty Soviet, and the Viets... My men and I, together, we fought off all that the enemy has to offer.. Under the hail of raining bullets and RPGs.. The ring of a grenade still echoes in my head.. We veterans are the ones who suffer..
War.. it never ends... and now... we are called to fight once again in..

Battlefied 2

King Arthur?? Right...

Although I wasn't really keen on going for the movie, I did eventually. Hmmm... At a norm, I wouldn't want to watch any show without SP. It doesn't feel right... Anywayz, King Arthur... Wasn't a king.. I wasn't really fond of that "legend" anyway.. Growing up watching the cartoon series whereby Arthur would yeild Excalibur in his grasp and when he shouted "EXCALIBUR!! BE MY STRENGTH!!" A great golden dragon would appear and then the bad guys will get  beaten up bla, bla, bla... Feels kinda lame... Some how all this medieval stuff reminds me of the "great" Lord Of The Rings (With really sexual confused hobbits)
Sam: Oh no Mr Frodo. You shouldn't go to such dangerous place. You would get hurt..
Frodo: No (my dear) Sam. I have to.. The Ring must be destroyed..
Sam: But.. But.. I don't want you to go.. I want to be with you Mr Frodo... Forever...
Frodo: I know (my dear) Sam, I know.. I too, want to be with you.. I... I... I want to spend my life with you!
Sam: Frodo... (*sobs) Don't go... (*sobs) Don't leave me... (*sobs)
Frodo: I'll never leave you Sam (*sobs) I'm always with you (*sobs) Sam...
Sam: Oh Frodo!!!
Frodo: Oh Sam!!!
The next few details are a little too explicit to be typed out but rest assured, it's nothing like what you're thinking now. Actually, I kinda liked that show.. Watched the 1st and 2nd part with Ann Na and actually wanted to watch with her the final one but... she had other plans... (awww) She feels guilty about it too.. Muahahahahhahaa.

Are You Half-Alive? (Hope you're not)

Once, you were travelling in a train.. to the place where utter horror awaits you, Gordon Freeman.. A simple task... A complex sequence of events... An army of aliens... A fight for survival...Just when you thought it was all over, that you've beaten the odds and you finally made it. You thought you would be walking into a hot shower after sipping on some hot cocoa...
Well... You thought wrong... You may have survived the first encounter...
But could you survive... 
Half-Life 2

Monday, July 19, 2004


Guess what? The praise and worship was ok lorr. Haha. Though I feel like I DID screw up and that I kinda slacked off alot, it went pretty well. I think Allan noticed it but he didn't say anything (probably because he didn't wanna hurt my feelings... so sweet of him). Hahaha. I really need to start picking up my electric guitar again.. Though not obvious, there IS a difference from now and last time.
Also felt better at work today as I talked to one of the crew about electric guitars and now... (evil laugh) I'm one step closer to selling my electric guitar and finally getting the X that I want...
(smiles....) Muahahahaahhahahahahahhahhhhaha

Sunday, July 18, 2004


It's already 1.22am sharp and my bro just came home. Poor dude just came home from dinner. Haha. It seems he had a long day. Oh well.
Kk. Back to me.. So.. What about ME?
(ex)Agent Smith:  Me, me, me...
(stabs another agent and watches as his codes transfers from his hand).
(2nd ex) Agent Smith: Me too. (smiles menacingly)
Matrix is soooo old dude. Get a life. Haha.
Ok.. Seriously, lets get back to the blog. Today, I was very disappointed with myself (and still am). I told myself that I wouldn't touch my X until I sold it off and bought a new one but I guess it took too long. I needed to use the X for GY practice today and GY tomorrow. So sad... I really really wanna sell off this guitar and buy a better one. I've prayed and prayed and I'm still waiting for God to move His hand over it. Sigh... What to do. GY has always been my priority over my studies and leisure (i guess that explains alot).
I realize haven't touch my electric guitar since I came back from NS (which was like nearly 3 months ago) and I'm getting really rusty at it too! It's a real shocker to me. It adds to the disappointment. I really feel I need to apologize to Allan. I guess I haven't played so badly before. It's so embarrassing I tell ya. Can't seem to get it off my mind. I really don't wanna screw up tomorrow, so even now I'm listening to the songs and think of ways to fill in the gaps.
"Oh God, please hear my pray.. Please open the door for me to sell my electric guitar for a reasonable price, that I may buy a new one Lord. You knew from the start, that the only reason I bought an electric guitar, or any guitar for that matter, was to simply give You back what You gave me O Lord; my praise and worship. Those instruments were bought to serve only You. You hear my heart O Lord. In the name of Jesus I pray. Amen."
Whew... Typing that out really gave me some peace.. No kidding. Hehe.
Back to the blog. What followed after the practice: I went off with Sue Ping to finish of my "chores" and now... It is finish. Another boulder of my shoulder. Hey! It rhymes!
It's been awhile since I last went for a campfire but today, I went with SP (not Simple Plan) to the CHS pbsm (Note the small letters for "pbsm". You inferior fool!!! Muahahahaahaha!! Evil!!). Ok... That was weird... Anyway, it was kinda dumb and childish (if you ask me larrr.. it's all my opinion.) But before leaving, SP and I danced to "Mambo Rock", which wasn't so bad.. Hehe.
It's not what you do,
It's who you do it with.
After that we went to her aunt's house and chit chatted there. Quite a sporting family. Since we weren't planning on eating there, we went to Amigo instead. I had my usual Garlic Grilled Fish while she had Sizzling Chicken (there was a boxing chicken side order too). I must confess, I ate too much and now I'm paying the price. I'm writing this as fast as I can cause I really need to go to the toilet now~ Hahaha~ So please let your mind wonder and imagine what I did next!
Good nite peps!

The Need For Speed

I dunno about you guys out there, but I have an urge to drive fast... Real fast. Somehow, it didn't satisfy my... needs; I wanted more... I needed more... and so "it" came...
Now, I share my tale to anyone who would listen...
To anyone... Who has a...

Need For Speed: Underground 2

Friday, July 16, 2004

Call me Hung... Weeliem Hung

What a dude that guy is man. I mean like, I just watch him on American Idol Rejects and he was soooo famous man. He makes me feel like a dork..................
NO! I'm not a dork! Cause... I'm Spiderdude~!
Ok.. Enough of that. Well, today was quite cool. Woke up late (Wahahahaha) and I barely made it for Applied Maths. Blablabla. Class as usual. Maths ain't so hard after all........ What am I saying? It sucks man. Hehe~
Anyway, I did some... chores with Sue Ping. Haha. Sue Ping also get to really meet Aaron Wee for the 1st time (hope she didn't freaked out by the way he drives. i warned her that we're the same in most of things. hehe). And today is the 1st time I actually get to taste her wonderful cooking. OOOooooo... (she cooked magie mee). Cool indeed. Then I went off for my test. Quite tricky.. Gosh I hope I did good. Sigh... Alls good... After all, I'm Hung... Weeliem Hung...


Have you ever felt like you are being stalked? You know... someone... or something... following your trails... picking up your every step... watching your every move with silent eyes... Afraid? You better be... for you are being stalked by...

Thursday, July 15, 2004


Funny for a Uni called, Multimedia University, the computers here are awfully slow. I'm now in the CITS, Center of Information Technology of Students (i think...) department and the coms here are as slow as a grandma on the run! I mean like, you are suppossed to be in a place where computers play an important role and the coms specs over here is not even Pentium 3. It's sad I tell ya.. Sad...

Another joke is that the labs in what we called the FIST block, meaning Faculty of Information Science and Technology, are sooooooo sloooooow. It's so hard to do my projects there as my lab assignments are mostly done over there. Crap man! MMU's fees are so exspensive and they can't even afford to buy better computers to be used in the FIST block. Dumb...

nothing ends up perfect after all... hmmm...

You know, I was kinda excited about today since Sue Ping and I plan to shop for my father's birthday gift. So, patiently I waited, going through my lectures and stuff. Smiling tru most of it. After my last lecture, I went home (It was around 1.45pm already). As my bike glide it's way to my home, I notice that my bro's car was still around and I thought to myself, "Not again... Sigh...".

I jumped out of my bike, opened the gate (Strangely, even the windom pane was closed), ran to his room, opened the door and......... empty.


Went to the bathroom; nothing, toilet; nothing, store room; nothing, parents room; nothing. The car was around but it seems he wasn't. Dragging my leg back outside to push my bike in properly. I went into my sanctuary, closed the door behind me and dropped flat on the bed. Just before I could shut my eyes, dad called, asked me where am I, and told me that he fetched bro to MMU. OOhhh.... Great.... As I was walking to the kitchen, I noticed that nobody hanged up the laundry that was fresh from the washing machine, so me, being that type of guy hanged up the laundries.

Before I knew it, it was already time to leave and so........ I left larr. Duh!
Went to Sue Ping's house, picked her up from school, took her to the bank to do some stuff and we makaned lunch at Sushi King, my treat ofcourse. Had a good time with her throughout the day. We did our usual prankster stuff, teasing each other and stuff. Things seems to be getting better between us. Thank God. But, like all "good" days, it always seem to end with something "bad". Since when life was perfect eh? Spent the whole day feeling great and now I'm spending the whole night feeling bad. What a combo.

So it dawned upon me... Nothing ends up perfect after all... hmmm... but we humans, strive to make the most out of it, especially we, Christians. We learned that there's always more to this life; than living and dying, more than just trying to make it through the day. God bless your day dudes!

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

TYI: Test Your IQ!!

This is the 1st TYI of this blog!
Go ahead and knock your self out!

  • Is This Art or Crap?
  • Hmm.. Modern or Retro?
  • Tuesday, July 13, 2004

    The D-BDay 2: The Carry-On

    OOooo.. Dad reached home around 8.30pm and we immediately left for our objective; Carry-On. Though we booked the place for 10pm, we called them up and told them our EST was 9.05-9.15pm. The car was quite quiet throughout the journey. Don't ask me why, it was already strange to me; sitting in car, and the radio wasn't even on! But hey, it didn't bothered me then.

    We arrived 5 minutes earlier than our EST. To our surprise (Actually we expected it anyway), the restaurant was quite empty, so we did all the calls and bookings for practically nothing. Sigh... But... Things turn out pretty good. We had a great dinner. We chat alot about stuffs and laugh alot too. It's been sometime since we had a real good family dinner. So you could imagine the fun we had. My dad and bro started to use my special method of cooking using my secret ingredient; The Garliconion. Sure it sounds lame but hey, it works for me. Hehe.

    In the end, I really do hope my father had a good time. I pray that he will have a long and wonderful life filled with God's blessing. Dad, though you won't read this, I just want to type this out before the clock strikes 12...

    Sorry for all my mistakes and past failures. May the rest of your days be fruitful and full of blessing! Happy Birthday Dad!!

    The D-BDay (Dad's Birthday)

    The man who gave his life for his family; who gave up his career opportunities to be closer to home; who puts aside his hobbies to earn some cash for worthless people; who works hard everyday to make a living.. The only man who's able sleep while watching the news and playing his PDA in the same time.. Laddies and gents, boys and girls, dudes and duddets, nerds and nerdess, geeks and geekess, kids and kiddies <= doesn't make any sense.. I present you, Thomas Liu Hsun Ping; my dad.

    He's now on the way home from KL. Imagine, going to KL to attend a meeting on your birthday.. What a guy.. When he comes back, the family is gonna bring him to eat some Carry On. Hehe. More updates when I come back k?

    Ahhh.. Life's cool.. I guess..

    Well, work up feeling tired as usual. Had a hard time keeping my eyes open in MicroEcon lecture this morning. The lecturer was kinda boring... Oh well, it looked like a normal day but there's more...

    After my friend taxied me home (he's a cool dude who plays golf), I looked into the house and realize that...
    "GASP! My bro's car is still in the house!! Quick~!! Gotta wake that head of stone dude up before he is REALLY late for lecture!!" (note: it was already 10.15am when I reached home)

    Opened the gate and ran to his room; twisted the knob, "Crap! It's locked! Get the keys!"
    As the door opened up, a rush of cool air (air-conditioning) breeze past my face and there layed... The Dude... Sleeping like a stone on the ground. No matter how much you kick or step on it, it doesn't wake up.

    Bro: Wha...? Quick... you're late Andrew...
    ND: Whatca talkin' about? I CAME back from lecture already~ You're gonna be late dude~!
    Bro: Wha? My lecture starts at 10...
    ND: ....... (points at his clock hanging on the wall)
    Bro: (stares.......) Aiya... Guess I'll have to take replacement class... (falls back to sleep)

    I admire his 'Shin Chan-ness'. Always calm and steady. Right... So later it rained and... bla bla bla (Quick~! Read the previous blog!).
    The sequal: I went to the motorshop and had a weird conversation with the repair-boy there.

    Repair-boy: (Sees me walking to him.. Pushes my bike out)
    Me: The bike ready or not??
    RB: Oh.. Not yet.. The boss is in hospital.
    Me: ... You can't fix the bike without the boss around ar?
    RB: Oh.... Uh.... No time lorr.. Alot of bikes to repair today larr..
    Me: I.. passed.. the.. bike.. to.. you.. on.. Saturday..
    RB: Oh? Yameh? Didn't see wor..
    Me: ... (Stares at the bike and wonder how could he missed it)
    Me: (Takes a deep breath and sigh..) Anyway... I need the bike to go to work now. So I hope it won't kill me on the way and if it does, won't die one what... Right?
    RB: Haha <= Fake laugh
    Me: (Rode of to work. It was still raining lightly.)

    At work, everything was slow and steady. Didn't had to rush much as bussiness was pretty slow.. Good for the workers, bad for the managers.. It was SOOooooo boooorriiinnggg... Most of my time spent there was chatting with the other workers. So I worked and worked as time passes me by. While working I was partially sms'ing my dear and she said she'll come and visit me later. Cool! Hehe. I miss her alot I tellya... Really... So I was eagerly waiting to see her walk through the front door that I didn't even take a piss (My bladder was full.. Real full). Eventually she came and gave a broad smile to me and I replied back with a goofy smile. Haha. Chatted with her. I was glad she came so atleast I had something to kill my time with. To my relief, she was feeling better already but that day, she was sick; down with slight fever (According to her, she played in the rain.. Sigh..) I gave her 100+ with salt to help reduce the heat. After work, went to eat dinner with Ee Ping and her.

    Later, I came back smiling, knowing that God has answered my prayers and has gave me peace, lots of it. Even though I'm tired, the feeling of being with her gave me strength. Hehe. Though it's nothing compared to the strength that God gives; in Him.

    Me: Life's cool..
    Myself: Indeed it is..
    Irene: Since when did my name appear on this blog? I'm gonna sue~!

    God Bless your week people!

    Monday, July 12, 2004

    Rain.. I need a car man..

    It's almost 2pm and my lecture's gonna start~ And here I am at home cause of the rain.. Crap~! I just hope the rain will stop so that atleast I can go to work and earn some cash. Sigh.. It's strange how it started raining.. As far as I know, the sky was clear on the way home from morning lecture and when I was in my room changing, the rain suddenly poured the ocean to my doorstep. This are just one of the days that I wish I had a car..

    I need to get my bike from the motorshop before 3pm if not I won't make it to work. My faithful pal blew up on me (or under to be more precise) while on the way home from work last Saturday. Luckily, my legs and... umm... My Precioussss, were still in one piece. No further comment on THAT part. Wahahaha. Ballz of steel. Right...

    Sunday, July 11, 2004


    Although today I had a great Team Meeting at Aunty Agnes, when I reach home.. Start to sms, I feel sad again.. Why is it that I can't seem to make things right? I try hard.. I try so hard to make things right with everyone.. I risked so much and sacrificed for loved ones.. But still, it's not good enough. How much must I give? What must I do just to see my loved ones smile again? Sigh.. I trust in You O God.

    God is God - SCC

    And the pain falls like a curtain
    On the things I once called certain
    And I have to say the words I fear the most
    I just don't know

    And the questions without answers
    Come and paralyze the dancer
    So I stand here on the stage afraid to move
    Afraid to fall, oh, but fall I must
    On this truth that my life has been formed from the dust

    God is God and I am not
    I can only see a part of the picture He's painting
    God is God and I am man
    So I'll never understand it all
    For only God is God

    And the sky begins to thunder
    And I'm filled with awe and wonder
    'Till the only burning question that remains
    Is who am I

    Can I form a single mountain
    Take the stars in hand and count them
    Can I even take a breath without God giving it to me
    He is first and last before all that has been
    Beyond all that will pass

    God is God and I am not
    I can only see a part of the picture He's painting
    God is God and I am man
    So I'll never understand it all
    For only God is God

    Oh, how great are the riches of His wisdom and knowledge
    How unsearchable for to Him and through Him and from
    Him are all things

    So let us worship before the throne
    Of the One who is worthy of worship alone

    Saturday, July 10, 2004


    I've said before that I'm immune to people back-stabbing me, people betraying me.. but it seems I'm immune to it from everyone.. Everyone except my one of my own blood.. It hurts me so bad when the person whom I protected, I kept all his secrets, never expose all his lies just so that he would be safe, exposed mine.. It hurts me more than ever.. I can't write in this blog how much it hurts.. Yea I mean I never did expect him to keep my secrets and stuff but.. I dunno.. I dunno what I'm thinking even.. It may seem small to fractions of people but who are they to judge what my heart feels? Sometimes I regretted not exposing his dark secrets, his lies but then I know better than to get him into trouble.. Heck~ I use to say I don't care about my reputation, I don't care what people think about me or feel about me. I don't seek any acknowledgement from anyone..

    Anyone except him.........

    A True Story of... Sacrifice..

    There was once a small boy, who was playing with a ball in the playground with his friends. It was a good day, the sun was up and it wasn't really hot. The atmosphere was very peaceful. Opposite of the field stood the little boy's father, watching his son's every move; making sure no harm came to him.

    The small boy accidentally kicked the ball off the field and it rolled to the middle of the road and at the same time, there was a speeding car coming his way.. The small boy, being at his age, didn't notice the car and didn't know the danger he was in as he walked to the middle of the road to pick his ball up. All he know was that he was just trying to get his ball so that he could continue playing with his friends.

    His father, seeing the threat, immediately went to push his son off the road and unto the fields thus closely escaping the speeding car. His son was crying as; it hurt when his father pushed him wondering why his father hurt him when he was trying to have fun. The boy got angry with his father but his father, he knew the situation, he knew that his little boy wouldn't understand and he knew that his son would get angry. He knew that sometimes, to bring a person he loves to safety, he has to hurt her and risk the misunderstanding, just so that she would be safe and strong..

    Bro's new com

    Waaa... Finally my bro has his new com(puter). Hahaha. I sure like the relief look on his face when it finally arrived. I'm sure he's real happy. Hahaha. Good graphics card and a good system. Sigh... Can't wait till I get my own but I have to make a choice: either a better electric guitar or the com with awesome specs.. sigh.. choices choices.. here's the part where I wish I was born in a rich and wealthy family.. The com will, ofcourse be more exspensive than the guitar but... Sigh.. I dunno.. My bank account is as dry as River Nile (if that ever make sense). But for sure, one day I WILL get the com with the specs that I want but, till then, I guess I have to find more work to get it..

    Note: I might try to find work at Singapore or KL after I finish my course before I continue into my degree. I really need God's wisdom in this matter so pray for me ya?

    Friday, July 09, 2004

    Cyber Cafe's

    Woa.. It's been like so long since I last entered one.. I mean like.. Before this I would spend most of my teenage years lepaking here but.. Now I guess I'm either too old or too busy to entertain this kinda thing.. But today I'm in Energy Cyber Cafe' today trying to get some stuff that require broadband connection (eg: watching the new FF7 Advent Children trailer.. Awesome stuff mann.. I shall and must get the DVD when it appears in Malaysia.. Even if I have to travel to KL to get it!). *Ahem..
    So here I am... and nothing much to report besides that I have an English test tonight at 8pm and after that test I'm gonna play some pool. Hehe.

    Thursday, July 08, 2004

    Ego and pride?

    Take back your words,
    I wipe away the dust,
    I dare you to do your worst,
    You better make it fast,

    How dare you embarrass me,
    I demand respect but you show me none,
    In front of my friends you do that to me,
    I demand honour but you're a waste of time,

    You irresponsible joke for a man,
    You are a disgrace throughout the land,
    You anger me so pay the price,
    Don't mess with me, my ego and pride. - lovable hater

    My 1st daughter..

    Carroanne Wong

    Yup.. you heard me right.. she's my daughter.. The 1st of my 4 daughters (5 siblings all together) and among my 5 kids, she's the one whom I'm most proud of. She's now currently in Singapore working.. I actually adviced her to continue her studies but she insisted that she knew what she was doing... So, I gave her my support and trusted her (and prayed for her alot too). After sometime, she sent me a message in Friendsters.. check it out..

    From: Carroanne
    Date: July 7, 2004 4:10 AM
    Subject: daddy...
    Message: daddy, i start working already... as an office job quite easy is my
    3rd working day loh.monfay to friday, 9am-5pm,
    saturday 9am-1pm, after 3 months comfirmation
    can get alternative saturday off. my salary is
    S$1k per month, after comfirmation maybe will
    increase 'abit' loh.. well, im having good life
    here..daddy u take care oh, dun oways bz until
    forget me!!

    Her message sent me relief for now I know she's doing alright there.. Infact, she's richer than me but it's all cool.. So now when I travel to Singapore, she can take care of me.. Hehe.

    Across The Street.. Next To 7/11.. Under The Longkang

    im sure all of you have been there before.. the place where you feel everything is just so cold and empty.. and you keep looking for a way to climb out of this stinking hole. or maybe you aren't even doing anything.. you look at this hole as a sanctuary for you to hide yourself away from the cold, cruel, heartless world. it shows no mercy to you or to anyone for that matter.. we try to run from it and no matter how fast we run, its still close to bitting our arse.. and when it catches up with us, it beats us down and breaks us into a million.. we cry and beg but it doesnt listen.. it listens to no one.. the cold look of utter horror.. burning its gaze into your eyes, traumatizing you.. if you dont fight the fear, it will eat you up slowly; digesting you in the belly of the beast.. those who are lucky enough to escape its grasps, shows no sympathy and gives no empathy.. instead of giving a helping hand, they mock us for our failure, for our unworthiness.. it so sad to see our comrades fall in battle and it's even sadder to see those who survive run away from battle.. i don't care! i WILL fight it!! i wont let it get a foot hold in me.. in my soul.. i WON'T! but.. im weak.. and cant fight it alone.. how much can a man bear? how much longer can i hold on? i.. dont.. know.. i feel my life draining from my battered up body.. i cant feel the hurts and pain though its sword and lance pierce through my body..

    sigh.. why won't you all listen?? why won't you all understand?? all im trying to say is that... im broke this month and i need cash..

    - a dog for a bear

    The future

    You know.. Today I watched all the 3 episodes of Back To The Future. Yup. You heard right.. The one where Mic J. Fox acted in before he had that Parkdude disease (poor guy). Anyway, so the main character is this kid name Marty who went back to time, messed things up and had to fix it if not his future is destroyed. But things don't go the way they should and trouble comes and alternate realities and other crap theories kick in.

    Anyway, my point has some element about time travel and stuff. I was thinking about the movie; how one action can cause such huge difference in the future. Just because he tried to saved his young "dad" from being hit by a car, he almost ended up not being "born" at all. So I thought, if time travel could cause so much damage in the "Space Time Continueame", no wonder God didn't let it exist in the 1st place eh? To control time, to know your future means you have NO future. Think about it for awhile.. Quite interesting eh??

    After watching that show, I reflected back on all the stuff that I did to reach this far in my life and thought to myself; if I made a mistake in life (doesn't matter if it's big or small) it could change me, my destiny.. forever.. I know my life is in God's hands and I have nothing to fear.. I know this because I gave it to Him and never regretted a single moment of it.. I have no worries about my future, my career, my life and etc.. And all the sudden, SCC's song "Next 5 Minutes" came to my mind.. It's chorus was something like, "I'm living the next 5 minutes, Like they are my last 5 minutes..". So if I'm gonna live my life right, I'm gonna live it like it's my last 5 minutes and live it for God.. Now!

    Oh well.. Enough of me talking crap.. I'm gonna sleep now dude...

    I like the chorus

    It's real cool.. A song from Youth Alive NSW.. I like the chick's voice singing this song too... ;P hehe

    Here I Am

    This perfect love You give to me
    Compares to none there has ever been
    How can I give back to You
    All that You have given me

    All You are is all I desire
    Your gentle touch helps me survive
    You’re the air that I breathe
    Heaven’s gift to me

    Take my heart
    Take my life
    Take all I am
    I give it to You

    Here I am
    Before You I stand
    No secrets to hide
    I am Yours and You are mine

    Lord I’m in love

    Who Your are is all desire
    Your gentle touch helps me survive
    You’re the air that I breathe
    Heaven’s gift to me

    Take my heart
    Take my life
    Take all I am
    I give it to You

    Here I am
    Before You I stand
    No secrets to hide
    I am Yours and You are mine

    Lord I’m in love

    Here I am
    Before You I stand
    No secrets to hide
    I am Yours and You are mine

    Wednesday, July 07, 2004

    Hmm.. Interesting

    Check this out dudes.. hahaha.. really helpful.

    Top 15 Biblical Ways to Get A Wife

    * Find an attractive prisoner of war, bring her home, shave her head, trim her nails, and give her new clothes. Then she's yours.
    -- Deuterononmy (Deuteronomy 21:11-13)

    * Find a prostitute and marry her.
    -- Hosea (Hosea 1:1-3)

    * Find a man with seven daughters, and impress him by watering his flock.
    -- Moses (Exodus 2:16-21)

    * Purchase a piece of property, and get a woman as part of the deal.
    -- Boaz (Ruth 4:5-10)

    * Go to a party and hide. When the women come out to dance, grab one and carry her off to be your wife.
    -- Benjaminites (Judges 21:19-25)

    * Have God create a wife for you while you sleep. Note: this will cost you a rib.
    -- Adam (Genesis 2:19-24)

    * Agree to work seven years in exchange for a woman's hand in marriage. Get tricked into marrying the wrong woman. Then work another seven years for the woman you wanted to marry in the first place. That's right. Fourteen years of toil for a woman.
    -- Jacob (Genesis 29:15-30)

    * Even if no one is out there, just wander around a bit and you'll definitely find someone. (It's all relative of course.)
    -- Cain (Genesis 4:16-17)

    * Become the emperor of a huge nation and hold a beauty contest.
    -- Xerxes or Ahasuerus (Esther 2:3-4)

    * When you see someone you like, go home and tell your parents, "I have seen a ...woman; now get her for me." If your parents question your decision, simply say, "Get her for me. She's the one for me."
    -- Samson (Judges 14:1-3)

    * Kill any husband and take HIS wife. (Prepare to lose four sons though).
    -- David (2 Samuel 11)

    * Wait for your brother to die. Take his widow. (It's not just a good idea, it's the law).
    -- Onan and Boaz (Deuteronomy or Leviticus, example in Ruth)

    * Don't be so picky. Make up for quality with quantity.
    -- Solomon (1 Kings 11:1-3)

    * A wife?...NOT!!!
    -- Paul (1 Corinthians 7:32-35)

    Frustrations... Just can't get enough of them?

    Yesterday, after going through all those crappy things, I thought that's the end of it. I dunno why, but somehow I feel so frustrated. I wonder why.. Maybe it because of some troubled love ones.. Or maybe it's because of my sick daughter in Johor.. Whatever it is, it's making me really frus..

    My dearest girl argued with her friends and her friend sms'ed me and poured everything out to me. They feel so hurt and bla bla bla. I tried to make them feel better, calmed them down and stuff. And at night, my girl began asking me a series of really weird questions.. Kinda made me worried too.. Sigh..

    Somehow, in the back of my screwed up mind, I feel there's something more that's in hand with this feeling. I'm quite positive that it's not just those simple matters thats making me frustrated and stuff.. I'm too tired for these things.. Gonna die soon.. Right...

    Tuesday, July 06, 2004


    You know.. After observing a few people (names have been disclosed due to certain privacy issues. Read Privacy Issues - paragraph 5, line 4). I realize alot of people do not really appreciate their friends. Sadly, some of them are either ignorant or just full of ego.

    As we all know, friendship is built upon years of trust, trials and tribulations together. It is then, that we find a friend.. a true friend. We can get close enough to call each other brothers. Take my bro for example; he and his friends were together since they were in primary school and now they're still close friends. Imagine the bond between them.

    But that's not my point. My point is that when the trials DO come, how would you handle them? Would you let go of it all or would you just hold on? Friendship; just like any relationship (bgr), has this in common; when problems come, if you let go, you would lose it all. BUT, if you hold on, the relationship will grow stronger and the bond, tighter and closer.

    Is it so hard to apologize to friend? Would you let your ego and pride take control of your friendship? It so sad to see this element destroy a wonderful friendship. Me, being a person with very few friends and having a problem trusting people, even understand that and wouldn't let it get in the way of my remaining few friends. If it's your fault, say SORRY! If it's NOT your fault STILL say SORRY! It wouldn't kill you.. Trust me.. I do that all the time. No matter how right I am, I will and must eventually say sorry..

    Hold on,
    If you feel like letting go,
    Hold on,
    It gets better than you know...


    No.. not your Neverwinter Nights or Final Fantasy summons.. What I meant was summons; as in fines for offence one commits or in malay, saman... I got 1 this morning for not wearing my helmet... "What? It's not MY fault.. I mean I was just fetching my friend to his appartment near by mmu~! We were rushing because we have an exam tonight.. but... but......... OK lar! Yala yala! My fault larr! Give me the bloody fine!" I wanted to shout to the dude "YOOUUU MOOORRROOOOONNN!!!". Since I can't afford another fine, I didn't.. Sigh.. Oh well.. So I went to their HQ which was just next door to "rayu". Actually I was quite impressed with their HQ. It was like... so grand man.. (Though we all know it will eventually rot and rust in a couple of years). Made my bloody rayuan and got a RM50 instead of RM70. Sigh.. Goodbye Steven Curtis Chapman DVD..

    Monday, July 05, 2004

    Mocking Mondays~ *smiles...

    If blurriness can be measured, I can't imagine what's mine.. Okay, my day started off like this; I woke up it was 7, waited till 11, just to figure out that no one would call... What the?!! Enough of Simple Plan would ya?! So sorry about that. Anyway, I woke up at 8am today; washed up, bathe, put on some decent clothes, and headed off to MMU.

    When I entered my MicroEcons class, I saw everyone sitting in order (it's something rare for us) and the lecturer was giving out papers and stuff, "Oh yea.. I'm having a test today~ Lalalalalala,". So okay, I took my seat, took out my X8-E5 stationary set and started answering the bloody difficult question. I'm not kidding when I say it's tough. I studied for it and it was still tough as hell (well.. maybe not hell, but somewhere near there I guess..) After my test, as usual, the class will be in the kiasu-checking-each-other's-answer mode and today, strangely the ass lecturer fuse was super short. He began shouting at us in a sudden uproar. He started saying things like, "I purposely made this test hard just to teach ya'll a lesson!! bla bla bla!! I promise you, your Final will be 10 times tougher than this test!! bla bla bla!! Mark my words; you are the worst batch I've ever encountered!! (Strangely, this is not the 1st time I've heard such remark about my batch.. I took it as a compliment. Wahahaa). To end his "speech", he bashes his table with his fist and said, "You are all dismissed! Get out of my sight!” Sadly, his words had little effect on us. The class stood up noisily again and walked off. Wahahaha. I love my batch. Bunch of arse holes and inconsiderate people~ Thank you! thank you!

    Okay.. So after that, I went off to study larr... Normal right? Thinking that I have a math test later tonight, I studied very hard, only to find out that the only test we are scheduled to sit for today was just the MicroEcons... Math test is next week... *stunted.............. Sigh..

    Be Like That

    Okok.. I know it's quite boring reading lyrics but hey, it's just me dude.. Anyway, this is an old song; the sound track for American Pie 2. Hehe. I didn't know it existed anyway (or maybe I was too blurr that time). Anyway... Here's 3 doors down with Be Like That. Enjoy..

    Be Like That

    He spends his nights in California, watching the stars on the big screen
    Then he lies awake and he wonders, why can't that be me
    Cause in his life he is filled with all these good intentions
    He's left a lot of things he'd rather not mention right now
    But just before he says goodnight, he looks up with a little smile at me and he says

    If I could be like that, I would give anything
    Just to live one day, in those shoes
    If I could be like that, what would I do, what would I do

    Now and dreams we run

    She spends her days up in the north park, watching the people as they pass
    And all she wants is just a little piece of this dream, is that too much to ask
    With a safe home, and a warm bed, on a quiet little street
    All she wants is just that something to hold on to, that's all she needs


    If I could be like that, I would give anything
    Just to live one day, in those shoes
    If I could be like that, what would I do, what would I do

    I'm falling into this, in dreams we run away

    If I could be like that, I would give anything
    Just to live one day, in those shoes
    If I could be like that, what would I do, what would I do

    If I could be like that, I would give anything
    Just to live one day, in those shoes
    If I could be like that, what would I do, what would I do

    If I could be like that, I would give anything
    Just to live one day, in those shoes
    If I could be like that, what would I do, what would I do

    Falling in
    I feel I'm falling in, to this again

    So, how was YOUR weekend?

    Woah.. I was so busy last weekend that I didn't even had time to write my blog~! Sigh~ Here's my weekend; woke up at 8am on Saturday morning to go work.. Worked opening with dad till 2pm and at 2.30pm I had music practice at GY. So all was still cool and stuff.. Came back for my dad at 6pm (I used his car to go for practice. Hehe). Then I lepaked at Kenny Rogers and chat with the crews there and stuff. Actually I was waiting for Sue Ping to come. Though she took a long time to come, I was okay with it. Wahahaa. Other people complained why I can wait for her but not other people. Hehe. The answer? I shall leave it to you guys.

    In case you're wondering, she came eventually and so we went off to play some bowling.
    We are actually getting quite interested in that game. We borrowed Rebekah's 11kg ball and played 3 games. Hahaha~ I found out that I actually suck a lot in trying other different types of throw. So far I know only 3 types of throws. Well, I got used to not being so good in sports or this kinda stuff. It didn't matter though as what I really want was just to spend some precious time with her as I'm getting busier each day especially with my work (Sat, Sun & Mon). Killer I tell ya.. Anyway, so after playing we went back to Kenny Rogers and invited the crews to play a some pool (Melvin, Jackey (Dunno how to spell HER name), Nik, Phoebe, Essabella, and me). While we were playing over there, I met my cuzzies namely Justin and Vincent Tan. They were there with their friends too. Before we left I played a couple of rounds with them and their friends. Haha. I found out that Vince doesn't know how to play (The shame...). Even Essabella beat kicked his arse. Hahaha.

    The following day was yet another exhausting day; the Sunday. The previous night I came back around 2.30am and I had to wake up at 8am. That day's GY service was actually interesting. I got a girl pregnant~! *Gasp~! (It was Renee. Just thought I let you guys know). The poor girl was 3 months pregnant and was just about to commit suicide and then me, the ex-bf came and saved the day~! (Yea right..). For you dudes that weren't there that morning, too bad. It was cool~

    After church I had to work at 1pm.. It was a quiet day at Kenny Rogers that day but busy enough to keep me on my toes. So I worked and worked till 9pm and my dad and bro came to pick me up. Then my dad brought us to Seafarer. Cool place to hang out. Really.. Maybe one of these days I'll bring you dudes there. Hehe. So anyway, my dad was there giving his friend, Un. Mike some tips on how to manage the restaurant and stuff (He's in the F&B line after all). The only part that was keeping my bro and I entertained was the 12 cans of Tiger beer. Muahahaa. It's been awhile since I got to drink FREE beer. We kept our cool and tried to answer all of their questions and stuff. We came back around 1.30am and I dropped dead on the bed. Haha. Though tired and exhausted, it was all cool for me. So how was YOUR weekend?

    Thursday, July 01, 2004

    Pain? Hurt? Don't make me laugh~

    Crap man~! I sucks when you're used to pain.. I cut accidentally cut myself today and hit my leg with a hammer(don't ask me how) but I didn't know the damage till I went in my room. It's either my skins getting thick (literally) or I must have somehow damaged my nerve or my brain cause when I look at the cut and the bruise I was like, "Hey?! When did YOU showed up?". For once, something like that actually scared me. Just imagine, you are quite badly hurt, and you didn't notice the pain, and when you do, you are wondering why there's no pain.

    Sigh.. The worse part is that it's the same thing with my emotion. You know, when my mom went to Saudi Arabia to work 3 years ago, she stayed there for a year and never came back for holiday. As we (Dad, bro and me) were driving home after sending her off, my dad and bro start to cry... and I didn't even shed a tear. I mean, I WANT to.. Really.. But I dunno why my eyes were dry at that time.. I used to cry but on that day I just realize I haven't shed a tear in a very long time.. It sux when your body don't reveal your emotions.. I do feel hurt and pain but.. It doesn't affect me at all.. And that sux alot~

    I keep getting beaten up,
    Like a steak before marinating,
    Physical and emotion,
    It's all part of my routine.

    Sometimes I get scared,
    Till I myself wonder,
    Why don't feel anymore pain,
    Is my meat is already tender?
    - Beansprout Flavoured Kang Kong

    Computer Systems and Applications

    It's funny how simple my CSA assignments are. I just finish mine and now I'm logged on to blogger; typing this down. It's soooo booooorrriiiinngggg. ARRGGHHH~! Sigh.. It's not even 1 hour but now I can go back because I've finish my pitiful assignment. It's a joke I tell ya~!

    ~Monkey For A Chicken

    House Work

    Something that isn't new to me. Being in the family with only 2 brothers I'm quite used to doing it. Woke up around 10am today and saw my mom doing some cleaning, so me, being that type of guy (Wahahaha) helped her.. She was sweeping the floor halfway when I got up so I told her I will mop the floor and wipe the table tops and sweep the outside floor for her. But to my utter disappointment (and my mom's). It seems the last person who "used" the mop didn't clean it properly and didn't even throw the dirty water away *sigh. Such irresponsibility really irritates me sometimes. "If you wanna lecture me about cleaning, do a good job yourself dude", that's what I always tell myself... Sigh..
    So now I'm gonna have lunch with my mom. We're gonna eat Pork Rice (YEA~!!!)

    Spiderdude 2

    Spiderdude 2 is an awesome show~! It's so much better than the 1st movie. There's more action (violence), romance (rated PG), and drama (sigh...). But in the end, it's a good show. I watched the 11.00pm show last night and it lasted for 2 and a half hours. Quite long if you ask me. Actually Sue Ping bought 11 tickets on Monday and 1 ticket was RM9, so spent almost RM100 for those tickets (*Shocked!).

    Anyway, so yesterday was quite a good day as I only had 2 hours of lecture (read previous blog). So I was pretty free and happy. Since Sue Ping's school dismissed at 3.15pm I went to her house at 3pm and had my lunch there too (Ate Mee Rojak. Hehe). I spent most of my time there either sleeping or teaching her maths and add maths. I found out that she's slightly poor in it so I helped her out as much as I can. She was a little annoyed with it but I don't care.. Haha. Though it's not much, I just wanna help her out for her SPM.

    Later after eating dinner, we went MP around 9pm (I think.. Can't remember). Since it was still early, we played bowling. Haha. Our 1st game was quite sucky.. Maybe it's just me (The bowling ball hates me... *sob sob*). Lik Shien joined us for the 2nd game. Not surprising, she was quite good. Hahaha. Eventually, I lost to the 2 girls *nods head in shame* ;). It's fun to see other people win instead of me. Hahaha. That's how I feel. Right...
    The stories and information posted here are artistic works of fiction and falsehood.
    Only a fool would take anything posted here as a fact.