| ghost of me

My house streamyx is back. Unfortunately, I'm too busy at work to be able to enjoy much of its return. Sure, I do finish work at around 5.30pm but the day doesn't end just there if you know what I mean. Commitments; I have plenty of them. It's a constant repetition of a never ending cycle that goes on till I'm out of university. In fact, I can even tell you my daily routine from Monday to Friday but, I wouldn't wanna bore you guys.

saw a brand new optical mouse that no one was using
~ it's mine now

Who am I kidding? I'm gonna tell you guys anyway, just for the sake of me killing time in the office (which I have plenty, by the way). So, here goes~
Monday:
8am - 5.30pm : Work (office)
6pm - 10pm : GerX (including dinner, pasar malam and disturbing the twins)
10.30pm - 12pm : Work (home)

Tuesday:
8am - 5.30pm : Work (office)
6pm - 7.20pm : Dinner
7.30pm - 10/11pm : CF
11pm - 12/1am : Supper (with CF)

Wednesday:
8am - 5.30pm : Work (office)
6pm - 7pm : Rest at GerX's house
7pm - 10pm : GerX (dinner and pasar malam)
10.30pm - 12pm : Misc online surfing

Thursday:
8am - 5.30pm : Work (office)
6pm - 7pm : Rest at GerX's place
7pm - 10/11pm : Care Group (includes dinner and maybe supper)

Friday:
8am - 5.30pm : Work (office)
6pm - 10pm : GerX (including dinner, pasar malam and disturbing the twins)
10.30pm - 12pm : Rest and misc stuff

coffee and cactus - my friends who keeps me company

Doesn't sound too bad eh? Try living it - if you can. Honestly, I'm getting more and more tired each day due to the fact that I come home later and later almost every night. I don't really feel it now but i know it's slowing starting to take its toll on my body. At first, when I woke up from bed at 7am, my body is well rested and my mind is tired. But now, my mind is even more tired and my body is starting to feel rather weak.

during lunch hour, i'll stand out here and stare
into the nothingness that stares back at me~

Bleh~ I need not worry about such trivial matters. After all, I am wontdieone. I can push my body and strain my mind long enough to keep me going everyday. And the best part is that I won't die - I'll just suffer a lot. ahaks~

the only way up, is raining above the umbrella

Working in this environment gives me a lot of free time to think while waiting for the huge 2GB database to load up unto my program. One of things that pop into my mind are immortals - if there are any, that is. Immortals must be a group of very lonely peoples. To watch friends and loved ones pass away while he remains in the prime his youth must be devastating. To feel all the pain the world afflicts on him but not able to free himself with death must be very hard. Yea~ Very hard indeed.

my chemical romance
ghost of you

I never,
Said I'd lie and wait forever
If I did we'd be together now
I can't always just forget her
But she could try

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever ever

Ever,
Get the feeling that you're never
All alone and I remember now
At the top of my lungs in my arms she dies
She dies

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me

If I fall...
If I fall...
Down

At the end of the world
Or the last thing I see
You are
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
Never coming home
And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I?
Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna